i do not fear not finding love
i fear what comes after itwhen we fall in love
a young, fickle thing
he may not notice my health
and it's lacking
worsening as time wears onif he did, would he care?
what happens one day
when i'm weak and tired
and can't rely on my own legs
instead using a chair with tires
as i already do
at the age of nineteenwould he push me?
if i can't go on trips with our friends
like we should
and have to stay in bed
because of pain
crippled in our dark roomwould he understand?
when he realizes that i'm a burden
will he cast me aside
not wanting a wounded women
hurting his pridewould he leave me?
i think these thoughts
a habit of the dark
and wonder if i'm better off without anyone
if i'm better off alone
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fourteen seconds to failure.
Poetrya collection of poems written by a sick girl through a never-ending journey.