Where Do Broken Hearts Go? 🌹 {on hiatus}

Chapter 1

NOW

They said give it time and it'll heal
I believed them to find out they lied

It's been 6 months and
i don't seem to heal at all
not even a bit

They said it's because I see his face everyday

His stupid, stupid face
which I regret falling in love with

After all
I was the one who thought
someone could fall in love with me

It was all lies I tell my friends
and all they can do is hug me
tell me it's alright
that it'll all be okay one day
will it ever be?

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I allow myself to enter my dorm, throwing my bag on the bed, frustrated with the fact that life just happens and i wasted all my vacations doing nothing and to only start with classes again and go back to the same monotonous stunts.

"Uhm" I hear an unfamiliar voice.

Fear settles onto my chest as I look up-to see a boy, clad in black from head to toe, dark hair fanning over his forehead, leaning against the only closet, looking at me. I freeze.

"Wh-who are you?" I stutter really not wanting an intruder right now.

"Your roommate? I guess?"

"I don't think so?" I, for one vividly remember that my apparent roommate had cancelled coming to the college at all, which left me with a single room which was advantageous because it was all I wanted, to be alone.

And secondly, it was the 4th semester starting and student's generally don't join in the 2nd half of the year.

"You're Lee Felix right?"

"Uh yeah?"

He got up and approached me.

"Hi, I'm Changbin" The boy, who now had a name, smiled.
I give a small smile back.

Before I could open my mouth again he continues, "You might be wondering what the heck is happening but don't worry, I've been here for the past one and half years and I only just applied for dorms."

"Oh"

"Yeah, oh"

"Okay.. Do you wanna settle or something?" I ask awkward and unsure.

"I actually half did, I didn't know where you were or have your number so sorry I barged into your room like this, I had no choice" Changbin says looking down.

"It's okay, I was just out with a friend,it's fine as long as you didn't steal anything" I chuckle lightly.

Changbin chuckles too, "Wanna have dinner?"

Same words

I feel a weird wave of nausea wash over me, Felix no no don't do this, not now, it's been half a year.

I gulp back a sob, digging my teeth onto my lower lip, it hurts
I don't know what does, is it the pain on my, now bleeding lips or is it the pain that i carry in my heart?

"Uh Felix?" Changbin interrupts my flow of thoughts.

"Yeah?"

"Dinner? It's kinda late already"

I bite the inside of my cheek and nod, I let out a shaky breath.

You're gonna be fine

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"We'll find better restaurants tomorrow" Changbin says smiling a bit as we walk back to our dorms, the Mexican restaurant right outside our university was, uhm, tasteless is a word I could use to explain it.
I've gotten used to it though.
There was this another good Chinese restaurant we could go to but nowadays Chinese isn't my thing anymore.

I sigh and nod, we maintain a good distance between us while walking, the acquaintancy we had visible to others.

"What do you wanna do?" The other boy asks, I feel like he had a need to fill in empty silences.
A year ago I would've found that as a nice habit or even cute.
But right now, I didn't wanna engage in conversations.

"Sleep" I murmer.

"Aw, no fun, let's play" Changbin whined.

Why do I find this cute

I shake my head to drop the thought off my head.
He seemed to take that as an answer

"Ugh Felix!" He calls.

"What?"

"It's Saturday night, it means fun night, let's like stay up all night and get to know each other?"

Get to know each other O.K.

I push open the doors of the dorms, a lot of people seemed to have comeback from their natives, there was a lot of buzzing around.

"My Saturday nights are called 'yay! more sleep' nights" I say trying to mentally weave my way through the crowd.

Before Changbin could answer I hear a familiar voice shout across the busy hall, "Felix!"

Changbin and I turn around to see Chan approaching us, "Chris!" I say, "Wassup?"

"I heard there's this new boy in the dorm, I was looking for him" Chris said peeping over all the other boys going around.

"Uhm..." Changbin trails off, making me and Chris look at him.
"Oh! Are you the one? I know you! You are in my composing lessons!" Chris says excitedly.

"Oh yeah, wait, isn't your name uh Chi- ah- Chan?" Changbin asks curiously.

"Yup, the one and only Bang Chan" Chan smiles bowing dramatically.

"When will you stop embarrassing me?" I ask through gritted teeth.

"Oh what Felix? I embarrass you now? You didn't think that last year whe-" Chris cut off his own words, he almost went there.

And I'm looking down wide eyed and honestly at this point I should be saying 'Oh it's okay, I'm over it, you can mention it and I wouldn't bother'
But I can't do that as the words get stuck in my throat, maybe I'm not over it.

"Sorry" Chan murmered.

I look up and give him a sad smile,
Nice way to kill the mood Felix

Changbin is standing here awkwardly too so I try to revive the mood I've caused.

"Let's go to our rooms" I say

"Staying up?" Changbin mutters mostly to himself.

And I swear I was so close to pinching his cheeks at the way he says it so adorably, but I control myself.
If he wants to stay up, I guess I could do it...... right?

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[ A/N: Welcome to the first chapter! I'm trying new stuff and I hope it doesn't flop, this story is in first person as you can see, it's Felix's P.O.V, if you know "No homo tho" I'm sorry, it's gonna be nothing like it XD It's something more serious and probably better :p

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