Where Do Broken Hearts Go? 🌹 {on hiatus}

Chapter 17

NOW

"So you never got closure?" Changbin asks into my hair, when I finished the messy tale.
Halfway through the story, anxiety was building up in the pits of my stomach and he held me close and calmed me down like he actually means it and wants to be there for him.

"N-no" I whispered, throat dry from so much talking.

"I kind of wanna murder him right now, kind of just wanna cuddle you for now" he smiles.

I chuckle softly, "Honestly? I prefer the second option"

So we stayed close to each other for a long time, cuddled in a single thick blanket and not speaking a word until the sky darkened and a few stars popped up.

"Felix?" Changbin asks running a hand through my hair, I hum in response.

"Let's go back, it's late"

I look up at him and a small smile forms on my face, "Okay"

We pack things up pretty soon and head to the dorm, each of us having a brief shower before we settle into our own beds.

"Changbin?" I ask after looking up at the ceiling for a long time, unable to sleep.

"Yeah?"

"Can you come here? I can't sleep"

There is no answer but I hear some shuffling and then my bed is dipping with his weight, Changbin shuffles closer to me and kisses my forehead, "Sleep well"

"Thank you" I murmur into his chest.

"What did you say?" he whispers

I look up even though I can't see his expression in the darkness, the sharp outline of his face helps me concentrate on something, "I said thank you, f-for today" I bite my lower lip.

He brushes the hair off my forehead and cups my cheeks, "You're welcome"

He falls asleep first, i stay awake for a while, thinking of how long it's been since last year, and how far I've come, when I feel my chest tighten I switch my thoughts to Changbin and the way he listened to everything without a word of interruption and his warm embrace, i smile to myself as my eyes flutter shut and I'm finally sleeping properly after long.

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"You look happy, did anything happen yesterday?" Chan asks, his eyebrows wriggling suggestively.

"Shut up" I try to get annoyed but a small smile lingers on my lips.
After spilling everything to Changbin yesterday, I feel a lot lighter and a lot better. It was a year worth of regret and whatnot. Thankfully the knots in my chest, though still present have loosened a good amount.

"I still haven't gotten an answer, did you have sex?" Chan asks cheekily.

My eyes widen at that, cheeks flushing unintentionally, "What the fuck, no-no, I just slept good after a long time"

"Whatever you say Yongbokie" he smirks

"fuck off" I hit his shoulders.

Chan winces in pain as Minho sits down next to us "What's up y'all?"

"What's your bet Felix had sex yesterday" Chan asks giggling as he wraps his arm around Minho's.

"When will you learn to shut up you useless boyfriend?" Minho asks smiling widely making direct eye contact with the said.

Chan panics and unwraps his arms, chuckling nervously, "Sorry"

"Wow Minho" I say surprised at how fast Chan conceded, "he's whipped"

"Sh-shut up" Chan mutters playing with his phone.

"Who's whipped?" Changbin who just entered asks, sliding next to me and flashing a small smile, I smile back.

"Chan is whipped as heck for Minho" I say giggling and looking at the couple in front of us.

"We been knew" Changbin replied laughing.

"The fuck? stop ganging up against me, anyways how was Mr. Min's class Changbin?"
Chan asks diverting the topic smoothly, it actually works.

"Ah he's so chill! Doesn't really give a shit about unnecessary stuff and is only serious when absolutely needed. You're gonna love him next year" Changbin replies smiling wide, you can see the passion in his eyes when he talks about someone or something he likes and I love it. I wish I could get back the passion I had for dance.

Well, more importantly, Changbin was allowed to take an extra composing course (which others will have next year) in advance because his previous composing teacher, Mr. Lee was impressed with his track. Changbin said this course is an easier path into the music industry and I couldn't be more proud.

"Oh Felix, there's this dance competition coming in 2 weeks, do you want to participate with me?" Minho asks leaning on the table with hands on his chin.

"I don't think I'm ready hyung" I say biting my lower lip and looking down. I really want to start participating again since I haven't gone to any competition since that fateful day last year but I don't think I can do it.

"Oh come on Felix, how long are you going to let the incidents of last year bother you? It's the past" Minho says in a soft tone.

"Yeah, Minho's actually right Felix, you need to go back into the game, who knows you might win" Changbin says intertwining his hands with mine.

I look at our hands and sigh, "I'll think about it"

"Isn't that Hyunjin?" Chan asks motioning towards someone approaching their group.

I look towards the mentioned direction and I see him, looking just the same, if not, glowing more than he used it, then I see red, my hands tighten around Changbin's hand and my breathing shortens.

"Why is he coming here?" I hear Minho in a distance and a unstoppable urge to throw up takes over me, just as I was about to say I wanted to leave, Changbin's hands untangle from mine and I'm engulfed in a bear hug and he's whispering into my ear, at first it's just nonsense to me but then I try to concentrate and I can finally hear him murmer, "Felix breath, nothing's going to happen, take deep breaths baby, you're gonna be alright" and I do as told, I take deep breaths and fan myself a bit and I feel better.

"Hey Minho hyung?" I hear Hyunjin's voice and I don't feel so shit anymore. Maybe I have better people in my life than the person he could ever be.

"What's up Hyunjin? Are you here to make Felix miserable again?" Minho grins softly. I chuckle inside, he's good with his words.
Chan nudges him, he doesn't care.

"I-i, no, I'm sorry b-but I'm hear to talk about the dance competition that's coming up"

"oh yeah, the incharge has been changed, you should talk to Mr. Jung, the dancer who joined last week" Minho replies and then adds waving his hands and smiling, "Now you can go"

"O-okay thanks" Hyunjin says scratching the back of his head, "and hey Felix?"

My breath hitches, my name still rolls so smoothly out of his mouth, I look down and place my hands on Changbin's thighs and ball it into a fist, I can't answer.
Changbin looks at me and then looks up to Hyunjin, "Can you tell me what you want from him?"

Hyunjin's eyes fleet between me and Changbin, a sad smile playing on his lips.
"Happy belated Birthday Felix"

Then he's gone.

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[ A/N: Sorry for not updating at all! Here's something longer than usual ❤ ]