Protecting the Chosen.

Chapter 23, Rules.

Killian.

I felt heavy, my head was pounding and even though i understood Orion i was still very much pissed at him. Pissed was a strong word, maybe more annoyed. No not that either, scared. Yes scared shit less. That fit extremely well with what i was feeling. Fuck. Everything he had sent me was calming and part of me wanted to know all that. Knowing he was proud of me even after i royally fucked up when protecting him several times now. The one where i got taken for 10 years taking the cake of course. That was not what scared me, i now knew what he wanted to ask me that day at the park. a flash of the three ran through my mind, looking up i saw Orion slyly smiling while looking out the window. Ass. By now i'm sure he is messing me with me, even if it's only a little. He was far too pleased with himself.

The car stopped at nightfall, a bombed out town was our home for the night. Cal and Orion had both cleared the area of people and deemed it safe to spend the night. I unlocked the door on my left and stepping out and immediately stumbling, Orion grabbed my arm just before my face hit the ground. 'Fucking hell!' i hissed before slowly getting up. Orion came up beside me and whenever i lost my footing he would help regain my balance. Sitting back down on a big rock i watched as the others set up camp, refusing to even let me start the fired i just huffed and crossed my arms.

The moment the fire was burning i got drawn to it like a moth to a flame, i felt a coldness in my bones i was hoping the flames could melt away. Dinner consisted of some left over meat and some slightly dented bread, i couldn't help the snicker that left my lips as i took the piece from a growling Orion.

'How are you feeling now Kilian?' Damian's deep voice dragged my attention away from my food. Hesitating to answer it took me a bit to form an answer in my mind. 'Better, nothing a good nights sleep wont fix.' Damian seemed pleased with my answer and referred from asking anything else. Nailed it!

They all talked allot after dinner, i was only half paying attention. The moment the plans for the next few days were mentioned i tuned back in. 'we made allot of progress in the last tree days so i think we will get there in tree more tops, as long as we aren't held up. The closer we get to the spot we will be able to feel them, they placed markers like we did in the town. We should be on the lookout for that energy. The map Dician gave us will only get us so far.' Damian said as he passed around a water bottle. We all nodded, determined to get there as soon as possible, the information they could have had a high risk of getting us more answers. Answers Orion was desperate for.

I needed to talk to Orion, in private. Sighing i stood up and looked down at him. 'Take a walk with me.' Surprised he looked up and nodded. Walking away from the camp i heard him follow me, the moment we reached a spot i knew the others couldn't hear us i stopped and turned on my heel to face him.

Even in the dark i could still see everything perfectly fine, and that was exactly why i choked up. He stood in front of me, hands in his jean pockets while leaning on one leg. His hair swiped to the right and the moon softly reflecting on it making it look like gold. He smiled at me and just waited for me to remember how to talk. It took allot longer then i had hoped.

'Why? you never told me and now you just bomb my head with everything at once? do you even know how confusing that is!' It was not my intention to sound so mad but i was, it was unfair. 'I know what you were going to say that day at the park, just like you know what i was supposed to say as your protector. all those damn fucking years in that hell hole and not once did i feel even a fraction of what you send me today, just why Orion? why now!' my shoulders slumped, i felt tired, the adrenaline was gone.

He gave me a weak smile. 'I hoped it would wake you up, i was scared. I know it was my fault what happened, all of it. You shared something with me and i was to distracted to realize that and while i was doing that i also broke our link. The thing i never wanted to happen ever again and i did it!' he choked on a sob but pulled himself together faster then i could reach him. 'I apologize for how i did it, but not for the fact that i did. You needed to know, i missed my chance once Kili. I'm sure as hell not going to let it happen again. I meant everything, you know i do. I know you will act like you were thaught and that is alright, i understand.' he was looking at the ground now, avoiding my gaze as much as possible.

The rules were clear, a Protector and Chosen can't be anything more or less then that. 'There are no elders anymore, rules are forgotten and new ones take it's place.' i walked towards him till i was just a few inches away, putting my hands in his hair so i could tilt his head up. 'I thought you knew me best Orion?' a pained expression crossed his face. 'I was never one to follow the rules, not then and certainly not now.' his breathing hitched as i moved in, his lips shadowing mine a few dragged out seconds before i leaned in.

His lips on mine were soft and hesitant at first. The coldness from my bones burned up so fast i pulled him closer, taking one hand that was in his hair to snake around his waist pulling us flush together. A burning heat now replaced the cold. Softly i nibbled at his bottom lip begging him without words to let me in. The moment he opened i dove in, deepening our kiss, exploring every inch of him. soft moans left him and slowly i could feel his arms wrap around me. Pressed against each other and still it felt like we were miles away. Our walls broke down, flooding us both with not only our own feelings but the others as well. it was intoxicating, breathtaking and oh so satisfying. He pulled back panting for air as he gazed at me. content i smiled at him, a smile like i used to do all the time. A real smile containing nothing but utter joy and happiness. Laughing out loud i buried my head in his shoulder. 

'W-what?'!' he stammered while he grabbed my shoulders. 'I wanted to do that for so long, it was even more... then i ever thought it would be.' I let my laugh die down and gripped him tighter. This was exactly where i wanted to be.

Orion.

He kissed me, He really kissed me. Letting him hug me tighter i let my hand slip into his raven hair, so soft. his lips pressed against my neck so softly i thought i imagined it at first, then i felt it again. closing my eyes i savored that feeling, it was such a small thing but I had never felt so loved with a single action. Pressing my lips against his temple i tried to keep my voice steady. 'T-thank you.' he just hummed in reply. The moment he asked me to go for a walk i was nervous, afraid he would tell me off and that it didn't matter how we felt for each other. That there were rules and we need to follow them. I had prepared for that but not this.

Walking back to the camp felt different, no words spoken but still fulfilling. Then we reached the tent, now what? unsure i stepped in and laid down on my back. Killian was fast to follow me in, he hummed again that was followed by some shuffling sounds. It was to dark to see anything but he seemed to have no problem. i felt it when he did lay down, it was allot closer then the other nights. He was right next to me on his side, watching me. Unsure i turned on my right side so i could look at him as well. He was close enough so i could just make out his face. I felt an arm tug at my waist as he pulled us closer towards each other. His legs tangled into mine and his forehead touching mine. His breath fanned my face and i smiled. Having the courage to wrap my own arms around him i fell into the best nights sleep i had in years.

(Art: toastchild on instagram, commisioned piece.)