Mr. Playboy | Jungkook

What Do I Do? (Special Chapter)

Jungkook's POV:

I marched into my room, closing the door without breaking it to pieces. I didn't want the guys to hear me, but I wanted to punch a hole into the wall. Everything, for the past few weeks, I have been trying to figure out this weird feeling that I've been dealing with ever since she came here.

I feel so different when it comes to Y/N. I flirted with her like I do all the time with other girls, but something about her changes me. All the girls want is my body, but she, she wants me. She wants all of me and that is fucking terrifying.

She makes me feel vulnerable and I don't like it. I promised myself I wouldn't go through that feeling ever again. The feeling of being hurt from someone I love. I thought having sex with another girl would distance me and her, but I made things worse by yelling at her.

I wanted to "sweeten the deal" but I just plain stabbed her in the heart. I wanted to apologize, but I don't know how. It's just better if she sees me as a playboy. I hate the feeling of being overwhelmed with these emotions that I tried so hard to lock away.

I first noticed it when I let her give me hickeys. I never ever let anyone give me hickeys, but I knew what she was doing. I knew she was giving me hickeys, but I just let it happen. I wasn't stupid, I was fully aware of it. But what really shocked me the most was when I let it slide.

I wasn't mad at her, I was amazed actually. I don't know how to exactly put it to words, but she's just special. She's not like the other girls. So when she said she met someone, a guy, I became furious.

I know I have no right to be, but I just am. When she told me all those things, my feelings were actually hurt and that scares me. She's making my emotions come out of the hole I shoved deep into my soul, never letting them see the light of day. I'm so confused. I want her, but I don't want her. I want her because she's perfect, but I don't want her because I don't want to get hurt.

What do I do?