so ya know how i told you guys about the guy i have a crush on? wellllll tomorrow me and my fam are meeting up with my aunt and grandparents and my crush's dad is coming with us!! sadly the boy isnt coming tho...
lemme explain further. so basically my uncle, dad, and grandpa are all going to a baseball game and they had an extra ticket and no one else wanted to go to the game, so my dad invited my boy's dad.
(im going to reference my crush as "my boy")
i know its pointless because my boy wont actually be there but maybe my dad will suggest that both of our families can get together soon and then i can make my move!!!!
i know that i'm reaching and have high expectations because the chance of this happening is slim to none. a small part of me is hoping that since my boy probably knows that his dad is coming with us, he will think of me. god i sound so desperate.
im just so fucking lonely and i guess i've always pushed aside the feeling but the older i get, the more i want someone to love.
and even if he doesn't have the same feelings, i wouldn't mind being friends. i've always wanted a guy bestfriend.
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my pointless book of rants
Randomjust my thoughts that I've never bothered to say. (legit started this when i was 13, and i'm 17 now so i apologize for how immature and annoying i sound in the beginning. i recommend reading later chapters)
