Psycho's Mine

Chapter Thirty One

I wiped the solitary teardrop that fell down from my left eye angrily. He was not worth it, I told myself, he don't deserve a single damn tear from me. 

All my life, hindi ko pa naranasang umiyak ng dahil lang sa isang lalaki. Sa dami ng lalaking dumaan sa kamay ko, I, for once, never begged for their attention, it was always the other one around. I have never been so frustrated with a man before to the point of crying kahit gaano pa sila ka-gago, I always leave them kapag pinapakita na nila ang kagaguhan nila dahil sinabi ko sa aking sarili na hindi nila deserve ang kahit isang segundo ng oras ko. 

Pinilit kong patatagin ang sarili ko to not spill any more tears, my chest is heaving from all the emotions that bottled up and is threatening to come out. Pinigil ko iyon and held my head up high habang binabagtas ang daan palabas sa stupidly expensive mansion na pagmamay-ari ng isa pang estupido. The servants, men and women, na nadadaanan ko, throw discreet glances at me and probably wondering why I look like a mad woman seeking for blood. 

There's only one person's blood that I'm after though.

Nag-eecho sa paligid ang bawat clack ng heels ko sa marble floors, at mas lalong tumitindi ang sakit ng ulo ko dahil duon. I didn't even stop to admire the surroundings nor swoon at the beauty of the interior, dere-deretso lang ako palabas.

I walked briskly along the path made of cobblestone, sa ibang pagkakataon siguro ay inaappreciate ko na ang kagandahan ng paligid sa mga oras na ito. Taking in the picturesque scenery, lalanghapin ang salty air ng dagat, just be serene and all but not today. I only have one purpose, to get the hell out of here. 

One moment I was out of the electronic gates, next thing, binabagtas ko na ang mahabang daan papunta sa main gate. I became more and more frustrated ng hindi ko pa matanaw ang gate na pinasukan namin kanina, dagdag mo pa ang init ng araw na sumusunog sa balat ko, it's making me think crazy things.

Stupid Keith and his stupid estate! Bakit ba kailangang napakalayo ng buwisit niyang mansion sa main gate? Flaunting his money with this? This is too much and too over-the top! Hindi lang siya stupid, gago pa siya! He thought I was a spy? Why would I be a spy? That doesn't make sense! He don't make sense! Then magagalit siya  just because binanggit ko ang ex-wife niya? Gago talaga! Ex niya na nga eh, dapat nagmo-move on na siya! Stupid! Jerk! Bastard!

"Aaaargh!" I lashed out by kicking a lone rock sa daan.

If only killing a person ain't a crime, I would've strangled him to death a moment ago! 

"Bakit ba napakalayo ng gate?! Buwiset!" I huffed out loud while swatting my hair off my sweaty face and neck. 

I glared at the perfectly trimmed bushes sa gilid ng daan and to the tall pine trees na nagsisilbing border ng lupain. This is just ridiculous, why is it so beautiful out here? Bakit ang ganda? Bakit? 

"I'll give it to him," I grumbled, "this place is fvcking magnificent."

I got frustrated again, why must he be so fvcking rich? How come na hindi ko alam? I thought he was just rich, but I never knew na sobra sobra pa pala. This is just plain idiotic. I'm such an idiot for thinking na bagay kaming dalawa cause we're both powerful and attractive. I felt so self-conscious and insecure all of a sudden, feeling so freaking small against the red brick walls.

What? What am I saying!

"I'm Wynter fvcking McIver! I am THE QUEEN of the boardroom! Why am I insecure? I'm never insecure!"

To hell with him!

Why am I chasing him on the first place? I only just want a fvcking baby! Kung ganito lang palagi then I quit! Ayoko na sa kanya!