Torn Between 2 (Jc Caylen and Matthew Espinosa Fan Fiction)

finally realizing..

When i kind of woke up the next morning i thought it was a dream i had about last night but it was too real to be a dream. I woke up next to Shawn not knowing how i got in this bed, because i honestly dont know how i got here. I just layed there trying to wake up, so i went on twitter on my phone. It was a bad idea because somehow the word got out that me and Jc broke up, i dont know how but i didnt really care. I continued to go on my phone till Shawn woke up reached over anf took my phone an dput it under him while still laying on his stomach.

Y/N: Shawn, give it back. I said quietly and he just replied with a groan. "Shawn come on" I said. He rolled over facing away from me.

S: aw y/n i like your lockscreen. I took my phone away from him and saw he was talking about our picture we took together the last time we were together. It was me and him on my birthday just smiling at the camera.

Y/N: shut up. I replied.

S: well thats not nice. He said and got up to go to the bathroom.

I lookd over at Matt to see if he was up, and he wasnt. So i just got up and threw on some sweats and a shirt and a bit of mascara. ( http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=128453437 ) Shawn came out of the bathroom and aske dif he wanted to go get some breakfast downstairs, he said yeah and asked if i wanted Matt to come but i didnt want to wake him up, but he needed to get up. I got on his bed and started jumping up and down on his bed yelling at him to get up. He started whining and telling me to stop but i just did it more. He grabbed my leg and somehow fell and then he got on top of me and started to tickle me.

Y/N: MATT! MATT! STOP PLEASE. i couldnt stop laughing.

M: NO THIS IS WHAT YOU GET!

S: ok ok can you guys stop this is weird. Matt and I started laughing, so he got off of me.

Y/N: i was wondering if you wanted to come to breakfast with me and Shawn. I sia dout of breath.

M: yeah sure, 1 sec. He got up and put on a shirt and went to brush his teeth. I slid on my flip flops thn went to go brush mine. 

We left the room and Shawn had the hotel key because i dont trust myself to have it and Matt doesnt trust himself. We went down to the dining area and got some breakfast from their mini restraunt that they had in the hotel. When we got there we saw Ricky, Connor and Kian so we went over and said hey.

C: hey y/n. He got up to hug me. "im sorry about last night"

Y/N: oh um thanks, its cool. Thanks for caring.

R: yeah, honestly that was just horrible. Jc actually feels sorry.

Y/N: ha i doubt that, but i dont wanna talk about it.

R: ok sorry. He said and hugged me also.

Y/N: so how ya doin dork. I said and messed up Kians hair.

K: you think ur funny?

Y/N: yeah kind of! i said in a bit of a cocky way.

K: i dont know how i put up with you. I just smiled and sat down to the table next to them with Matt and Shawn. The boys started talking while i did some thinking, like always. I started thinking about Matt alot lately. Well the past 12 hours basically, im not gonna go straight to him because i dont wanna seem like the girl who goes to the next guy she sees just because she feels sad or just needs a guy to feel good. I mean i kind of have no choice last night i went to a guy because i was sad but i mean i was surrounded by guys, im always surrounded by them because i actually dont have many girl friends. I mean theres Mahogany but im not as close to her as i am with Matt. I snapped out of my thoughts when i saw Jc, Trevor and Sam walk in. I just looked away and talked to the rest of the guys hoping he wouldnt talk to me. But he came over to talk to the guys since their his best friends so i get it. I sat there in silence once he started talking.