Torn Between 2 (Jc Caylen and Matthew Espinosa Fan Fiction)

18th Birthday part 3

i layed on a bed for about 10 seconds till i heard someone knocking on it.

Y/N: please go away. I said kind of quitely while still crying.

M: its Matt, please let me in.

i got up and unlocked the door and then sat back down on my bed. He walked in slowliy and closed the door and sat down next to me on the bed.

M: whats wrong? he said putting his arm around me and pulling me in to his chest while rubbing my back.

Y/N: its Alex.

M: what did she do?

Y/N: did you not see how she was all over Jc?

M: are you jealous?

Y/N: no, its just shes always like that. Everytime i had a boyfriend or a guy friend over they ended up hooking up with her.

M: oh. im sorry. 

Y/N: and Jc didnt even seem to notice, even if he did it seemed like he liked it.

M: y/n, Jc loves you so much, do you not see that?

Y/N: yeah i know, but i dont know anymore.

M: what do you mean not anymore?

Y/N: if he actually LOVED me he wouldnt have been letting Alex all over him, he wouldnt have cuddled with Lia, and he wouldnt have grinded on that girl at that club when we were in L.A. Its like he just doesnt care and im tired of it. I just need a guy who wont do that and would do anything for me and i wouldnt do that to me.

M: yeah, but you did kiss me while you were dating Jc.

Y/N: NO you kissed me and we were fighting so i was mad and i let it happen.

M: im sorry y/n.

Y/N: dont be sorry, i just need a guy whos like... i pause and look at Matt and he looks back at me. 

M: like what?

Y/N: like you. I say and grin at him.

He grins back and leans closer to me. And i suddenly just smashed my lips onto his. He grabs my face softly and i put my hand on the back of his neck and it started getting intense. Right at that point i hear the door open and quickly stop and look at the door and there is standing Jc. oh crap i thought.

J: y/n why? he said in a whispering voice like he was about to cry.

Y/N: i can expl- before i could finish the sentence he put his hand up like he didnt want to hear anything else and shut the door behind him as he left.

Y/N: oh my god, why? why am i so stupid?

M: no y/n, dont think this is your fault.

Y/N: MATT, IT IS MY FAULT! do you not understand? i let things get to me and i end up making them worst by doing something stupid. 

M: want me to go get him?

Y/N: no i got it. I got up and walked out into the hallway and saw Shawn, Josh and Taylor at the bottom of the steps.

Y/N: wheres Jc? 

T: why so you can tell him that your gonna fuck Matt next.

S: Taylor?! he said and slappd him on the shoulder

Y/N: shut the hell up and tell me where he is?

S: he went down to the pool.

Y/N: oh shit. Alex was still down there the last time i saw her and now hes down there. I went racing down the stairs and went to the back of the house through the kitchen and to the back deck. I looked over the railing and saw Jc now KISSING Alex. I was furious. I ran down the steps and over to them and pulled Jc's shoulder back. He looked at me ina pissy way.