CONFUSED.
You confuse me....
A lot.
There's not not a single day that I don't think of you.....
Its like you're ruling my mind.....
Controlling my brain......
I love you....
I really do....
But the thing is.......
You confuse me......
A lot.
Then,in the beginning.....
You were all sweet and nice,easygoing.....so lovely.
I never wanted anything more perfect.
But now,you're all bossy, won't even talk to me.....
It started when you became popular....
It started when all the girls started swooning over you..
You claimed to love me too
But times when I told u to wait....you wouldn't.
Times when I told you to stay....you didn't.
Times when I wanted to talk to you.....you didn't wanna listen....
And u said u loved me.
So I gathered all my courage and called you one night......
You picked up.....
Then you told me you were busy....
You told me to wait for you that you'd call back....
And then, you ended the call.
I waited.
I waited for you.
But you didn't call back.
I cried.
I was ready to let you in....
I made enough space for you in my mind
I gave enough room for you in my heart...
Hell!!!! I was ready to cross my boundaries for you.
You were ruling......you were controlling...
And you loved it.
I guess you were boasting about it...
To all your male peers......to all your female friends.
I became a laughing stock.
I couldn't walk around comfortably because I thought that every shit of a person knew our story.....
I was embarrassed.
I thought, "was it a crime to love you so much?"
Was it a crime to try.........
To try to give us a try?
I wept.
And then this night....
You called,I was asleep.
So you left a text....
Seriously????
You wanna come back all of a sudden?
Dude!!!! I don't think I can let you back in.....
My heart is still there in a wreck because of you...
And I don't want anymore hurt.
I don't want anymore pain.
I don't want more wreckage.
So have mercy for my poor heart and just leave me alone.....
I'd like it if we ended here...
I love you......
I really do......
I'll always do......
But the thing is.......
You confuse me....
A lot.
You really do.
Phoebe
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