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She wasn't weak.
When she cried the moon dimmed
The stars blurred,
The night grew darker.
It was like the universe could feel it.
The loud wails,
The ripping of her skin,
The shattering of her heart.
The unimaginable pain..
The pain from her soul..
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Soundtrack: hold on by chord over street.
I'm caught up in the middle.
Of who to trust
and who not to trust.
Of who to love
and who not to love.
Of who to believe
and who not to believe.
Of who to cry for
and who not to cry for.
Of who to sacrifice for
and who not to sacrifice for.
Of who to hope for
and who not to hope for.
Maybe its because if I didn't trust you this much and then you betrayed me,
I wouldn't feel like I was a fool.
Or if I didn't love you so much and then I found out yesterday that you didn't love me back,that you just used me.
I wouldn't feel like I was a much bigger fool.
Or if I never believed anything you ever said and then I find out that all you ever told me were lies,
I wouldn't cry like this,wouldn't feel this much pain.
Or if I never shed my tears for you and then you treated me like shit in the end,
I wouldn't look so pitiful.
Then you wouldn't feel leverage.
And I wouldn't feel like I was a fool for loving you.
Or if I never made much sacrifices for you and then I find out that all I ever did was useless,
That they didn't mean anything to you,
Maybe I wouldn't be so broken...
Or if I didn't hope that you'd be mine,
That you'd be mine forever.
And then I realize that I should never have felt hope....
Should never have fallen for you,
Should never have fallen too deeply...
It wouldn't hurt so much like this.
Cos in the middle of all this chaos...
There was you.
And I guess all these emotions, all these feelings weren't worth it.
You weren't worth it.
Cos I know who you are now.
I know your true colors.
But just know that if you keep this up..
Lying, fooling around, playing with the hearts of innocent people......
You'd be surprised that where you knew you had love will be where you'll lose it.
It'll slowly slip away.
And you won't realize....
Not until its all gone
And you can't get it back.
Mi loves.
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Love..
Phoebe
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Phoebe's journal. #Project Nigeria
Randomlet's just say there's a girl named Phoebe with a whole long string of thoughts. She expresses her pains, her dreams and her desires in her journal... She doesn't mind if strangers read it.. It was made for strangers actually... Pls read on. Don't...
