Whitneys song I will always love you started playing as my mom was carried in, she was placed on a stand in the middle of the room as the room fell silent. A vicar dressed in white robes stepped up the the microphone as I glanced around the room and saw most people were in tears already.
We are gathered here today to celebrate the life of Eloise Greene, a mother, daughter and best friend. A woman who was taken from the people she loved too fast, *reads prayer*. Now a few words from some of her loved ones he said as my nan got up and walked onto the stage. She rifled through papers in front of her as she read off them.
My daughter Eloise was an incredible person, from the day she was born I knew that she was my perfect little girl. As she grew up she got blonde curls, she was such a happy child always running around and causing mischief. When she was about 6 I caught her playing dress up in my heels and with my makeup, she stumbled over in those heels and cried for ages. As she grew into a beautiful young woman she had her fair share of heartache, then she met dan.
She told me he was the love of her life, he treated her like a princess. I remember her coming over one night to tell me they were expecting a little girl, I was so happy for her. I watched as tears rolled down her cheeks and her voice cracked, I wanted to go up and hug her. She stopped for a minute and then carried on. Dan couldnt take the fact that he was going to be a dad and ran leaving her to face it all alone. And then she had a beautiful baby girl, a girl who I watched flourish into the beautiful young woman she is today. And although I will miss her with every thing I know she still lives in my grandaughter.
It was my turn next as I swallowed the lump in my throat as I walked up onto the stage. I really dont know what to say, my mom was the most amazing person in my life. She was beautiful and carefree and a role model. She was always there for me when I needed her, whether it was boys, bullies or nightmares. I miss her, her smell, her soft curls and her laugh. My life will never be the same again because shes not there, she wont see me have my first boyfriend, my first child and me getting married and that hurts so much. She wasnt just my mom she was my best friend and I will always love her.
I stepped offstage as I sat in my seat desperately holding back tears, the vicar finished the service as when youre gone by avril lavigne played as she vanished behind the curtain. Everyone started to file out as my grandad stopped, "are you coming angel?" he asked quietly. "In a minute I need some time out" I replied, "ok well me and nan will be outside waiting take as long as you want" he said patting my shoulder as exiting the church.
I stared at the curtain as all the tears I had held in burst out of me in noisy sobs and tears."Angel?" a voice said as I looked up and saw Tommy walkign down the aisle, he had a black suit on with a crisp white shirt and his hair falling over one eye. "Tommy w-what are you doing here?" I asked as he stopped next to me, "Im here for you. I heard your speech it was pretty deep" he said kneeling down next to me.
"It was true please Tommy just go" I whispered as more tears escaped my eyes, "You know Angel that im not leaving you in this state" he said pulling me into his arms and onto the floor in his lap. At first I struggled but soon gave up and sobbed into his shoulder "Oh Tommy im so sorry for being harsh, I tried so hard not to cry but I couldnt help it. I miss her Tommy so much" I sobbed as he stroked my hair and gently rocked me.
He didnt answer me just held me until my sobs subsided, "come on you have a wake to get to" he said. "Will you come?" I questioned, he gently bit down on his lip "I dont think thats a very good idea" he replied. "Please Tommy I need you" I answered, he sighed gently "fine but im not staying long" he said pulling me up as we walked out of the church.
My granparents looked round at me, "are you ok?" they asked. "I am now lets go" I said as we climbed into the car. We pulled up outside our house and saw loads of people gathered in the driveway, we all slid out and headed indoors. The night seemed to drag and I was getting pretty tired of im so sorry about your mom and she was a lovely lady, the room started to feel smaller like it was closing in around me.
I ran onto the veranda out front and leant on the bannister with my eyes locked to the floor. I breathed heavily as I looked up and heard singing, I followed the sound and saw Tommy sitting on the kurb singing to himself. He seemed to be singing something sad, I walked up to him and put my hand on his shoulder.
He jumped and pulled his earphones out, "Angel you scared me" he said quietly. "Sorry, I heard you singing it seemed like a sad song are you ok?" I asked. "It was a sad song and Angel I dont know anymore" he said looking down at his shoes. "Are you crying? Whats up?" I asked sitting down next to him, "I dont know Angel I miss seeing you and talking to you. People at school are being so mean to me and my parents keep fighting I dont know what to do anymore" he said his breath hitching a little more.
"Look Tommy I miss you too more than you can ever know. Are the kids at school being super harsh? As for your parents all families go through arguments and stuff and then they get over it, you know im only on the other end of the phone" I said. "Thanks" he said keeping his eyes locked to the floor, "what are you doing out here anyway surely you should be inside with your family" he said quietly.
"I needed some air I cant take anymore people going oh im so sorry for your loss its doing my head in" I replied as Tommy didnt reply. "Tommy look at me" I said lifting Tommys chin up, his eyes were all watery as a few tears escaped and trickled down his cheeks. "Wow this stuff is really getting you down isnt it?" I said as he nodded. I pulled him into a hug and twisted a piece of his fringe round my finger as his shoulders shook with tears.
I swear these people at school are so in for it when I go back, how dare they upset my pretty kitty like this. I hated seeing him in tears, granted it wasnt very often that I did which just made it hurt more. He slowly quietened down as he pulled away, "im so sorry angel you dont need this right now" he said apologetically. "Seriously youre my best friend and I will always have time for you and care about you no matter what is going on in my life" I said.
