Call Me Simon

Chapter 22

Simon

Everything goes in a flashy, white haze. Me being in a ambulance, doctors rushing to my side, me being tested and the usual things that would happen in a hospital. It's really hard to breathe and my arm and leg hurts completely. I want to cry out for pain but my body hurts to much to do so. I try my best to turn my head so I can see my arm. It's gushing out red blood and it starts to feel numb. My entire body starts to feel the same. I close my eyes and try to think of all the good things that has happened to me.

I try but I can't. Everything hurts. I don't know what dying feels like but I bet this is a close second. I start to tear up. Not because I'm in so much pain, but I have a crazy thought that keeps on swarming around in my mind. I might die today. I may never see my parents again. May never see Nora again. Leah, Nick and Abby. Elio. Oh my god. I might never be able to graduate with Elio. I won't be able to walk down the aisle with him. Never will be able to call him my husband. Never will be able to die with him by my side. 

Because I might die now. I can't believe it. This might be it for me. And I haven't told Elio "I love you" one last time. I start to feel like I'm fading away. Like I'm actually leaving this world right here, right now. Everything else in my body feels like it's gone already except my mind and my heart. But I already know that my heart is the next thing that is going to go. I try to pray to God to give me more time, but I know that he won't let me. I hear a nurse saying that I might not make it. I conclude that I have at least a minute before I go. I decide to say a few things to the people I love.

Leah, you are one of the bestest friends I have ever had. You know how to make me laugh and smile when I'm upset, you give me the logic of things when I need it, and you are always there for me when I need it.

Nick, man, you're just the best. I can't express how much of a friend you are to me. You are the brother I never had. I couldn't ask for a better soccer loving friend.

Abby, you are one of my recent friends but our friendship is ancient. I just want you to know that you have been there for me in my darkest times and I want to say thank you for that.

Mom, Dad, Nora, you guys are the best family a guy could ask for. You are caring and loving for me and I really appreciate that. I can't believe that I won't be able to see you again. Before I go, I want to say that I love you guys so much and that you will see me again in heaven, I promise.

Last but not least, Elio. God, I can't express how freaking amazing you are. You make me smile when you yourself, is frowning. I don't know a word to even describe how much you mean to me. I don't think that even matters up to this point. Anyways, I hope you don't leave me when I go. I want you to always think of me whenever you need to. You have done so much for me and I don't even know if I deserve that. I may, I may not. But I got, like, three seconds left to tell you something.

I...

Love...

You........

Elio

Nick had called an ambulance. I still held Simon in my arms. But paramedics took him away from me. I beg them to let me stay with him, but they say that because I'm not family, I can't go with him. Screw that! But police came and arrested Marnie. I heard that Oliver was here, but I didn't see him. Police dragged me, Nick, Abby, and Leah from the scene. Paramedics gave us blankets to help us. Police tried to make me talk, but I couldn't say anything. So Abby explained the situation. I was in shock.

Simon might die. And it's a fact. All because of me. If I hadn't been so dumb I wouldn't have fallen for Oliver and then I wouldn't get PTSD and the video wouldn't have happened and Marnie wouldn't be jealous. It's all because of me.

"It's all because of me." I finally say. Everyone turns to me in shock that I spoke. Abby turns to me quickly.

"No it's not. Don't you dare say that!" Abby says, she starts crying. I'm in shock. Abby almost never cries.

"Simon's in that ambulance because a jealous naive bride thought that an evil man loved his victim. And don't you ever, ever say that Simon's gonna die cause he's not. Simon's gonna come out of this alive and you better be saying that in your head. Simon's gonna live." Abby shouts.

"Simon's gonna live." Leah says.

"Simon's gonna live." Nick says.

"Simon's gonna live." Abby says. Everyone stares at me expectedly.

"Simon's gonna live." I say. Everyone nods. Then we hear yelling and footsteps. We all look up to see Simon's parents run up to us.

"What happened?" Emily asks.

"Elio got an email from someone to meet him here alone. But of course we went with him. She explained that she was Oliver's wife and that she wanted only Elio. Elio stepped forward and closed his eyes. But she pulled out a gun and before she could shoot him, Simon stepped forward and she shot him. Three times. He's being taken away, but we can't ride with him cause we're not family." Abby explained. Simon's parents looked shocked.

Jack went to a police officer to see what hospital Simon was being transferred to. After he got the name, he told all of us to get in the car and let him drive us there. We all got in the car and Jack drove us to the hospital. Midway of driving, Emily turned to me. I was in the middle seat.

"Elio? You okay?" She asks. I nod my head. Abby looks at me and rubs my shoulder. I lean my head on her shoulder.

We arrive at the hospital and we rush to the front desk.

"Did someone named Simon Spier arrive?" Jack asks.

"Yes. He came ten minutes ago. But he's in surgery right now. You can all wait in the waiting room. After the surgery is done, only immediate family is allowed to visit him." She says.

"Is he alright?" Leah asks.

"He was in critical condition when he arrived. The surgery should last up to five hours." She says.

We all nod and sit in the waiting room. I lean against Abby again. I sigh, holding back tears. Abby must have noticed.

"It's okay to cry." Abby whispers. All my tears start to come out at once. I sob into her chest and she rubs my back.

"It's okay. Just let it out." She whispers. I cry even harder.

Simon, don't die. Please.