"Sino kayo? What the fvck do you need?!" sigaw ko.
I flinched when I felt his hand on my side, moving it up and down. Hindi ko gusto ang paraan ng paghawak niya sa akin, nandidiri ako. Hanggang sa naramdaman ko ang init ng hininga niya sa bandang tenga ko sabay bulong ng "Ang ganda mo.. nagiinit ako sayo"
I spit on his face, disgusted. I can't really remember paano ako napunta sa kanila, I just remembered partying with my friends then black out.
"Tangina to ah!" saad nung lalaki. He sucked the lobe of my ear, I tried to move away pero malakas niya akong hinawakan as he tried to held me down. More tears fall down my eyes.. Gusto kong lumaban, gusto ko siyang itulak, gusto kong makawala pero hindi ko magawa. I feel so helpless
"Please, stop" I begged. I felt his hands on my breast cupping it. Mas lalo akong naiyak dahil sa takot ng pwede niyang gawin sa akin.
"Oh? Kanina lang ang tapang-tapang mo tapos ngayon magmamakaawa ka?" tumawa ito ng payak.
I was dropped to a hard solid surface. They untied my feet, I folded one leg ready to kick but to my dismay he brutally held my ankle. Umakyat ang kamay niya sa butones ng jeans na suot ko, he unbuttoned it and hastily pulled my jeans kasama ang panloob ko. I cried as he spread my legs apart. I had never felt so helpless, my chest felt tight as I could hardly breathe from sobbing and crying
"Ahhhhhh!" napasigaw ako when I felt a rush of jolting pain in my most intimate part. I can feel my eyes shutting as I feel nothing but an unbearable pain
Hingal na hingal na napaupo ako sa kama. My heart was beating a thousand miles per minute, I could feel beads of sweat on my forehead
"Ok ka lang? Breathe.." saad ni Judy habang hinahaplos ang likod ko
"The past is still hunting me, Judy. Kailan ba to matatapos?" lumipat ako ng upo sa harapan ng table niya
"I don't know but I'm sure you will" she tapped my shoulder as she continued doing her stuff
"What are you doing?" nagtataka kong tanong nang makita siyang nilalagay ang gamit niya sa isang box
"Didn't I told you? I'll be leaving for Canada, silly"
"Ngayon na ba yun?" my lips tugged downward. She already told me two weeks ago pero ngayon lang nagsink in sa akin that I won't be seeing her again next weekend.
"I'm sorry K but I can't let this opportunity go but don't worry, I have a good therapist for you" she said.
"But I only want you" I pouted. What would you feel if your therapist of six years decided to leave you.. She'd been my therapist and my friend for a long time and I don't know how I'd do without her around anymore.
