roommate // norenmin

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hello everyone i am so sorry that i haven't updated in forever !! work has just been so stressful and i don't wanna go anymore :(( but i need the money so i gotta stay, i am so thankful for all the reads so far, i love you all ♡
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renjun's pov

i wasn't making it to the store that night, i turned around and decided to walk to where jeno and i first hung out, the bridge. it was a little away from the nct house and the rain was getting heavier but i would be fine, i hope. the roads were quiet, almost to quiet, i could hear all the crickets and frogs. no cars passed but it was peaceful and a much better noise then the sound of jeno and jaemin laughing next door to my room.

soon i reached the bridge, not one person was around, i was alone, but when am i never. at least here i felt at peace, i was just left with my thoughts where me and jeno first became friends. i remember the first time i seen his eye smile, it was beautiful, i wanted him to smile like that forever. i haven't seen his smile in forever, i hope jaemin is happy seeing it right now.

i climbed on top of the railing that looked over the water and watched as the waves crashed against rocks. i never knew how peaceful it was to just watch the movement of water, it was calming in a way and i felt happiness for a moment. of course my happiness was gone when my thoughts picked back up about jeno and jaemin, why do they never leave my head. i told myself i wouldn't cry but here i sit on this railing as tears stream down my face, no matter how much i wipe them away and whisper to myself not to cry, the tears just won't stop. im such a crybaby, crying over some boy just hanging out with his friend.

why am i making such a big deal out of this ? it's just jeno and jaemin hanging out, nothing more than that. just friends. that's what i keep on reminding myself, yet the tears come down harder, i have recently started to believe maybe it's not just friends, the sure do act like more than friends. maybe that's why jeno won't cuddle with me now or lay down with me during storms, are him and jaemin dating ?

with these bad thoughts i begin to breakdown even more, why do i always do this to myself, my mom always told me to never fall in love unless you know it's the right one, all this time i thought jeno was, he always acted like he loved me, but now i guess i am wrong, i was a cover up until jaemin got back, it's like that for all of nct, since jaemin came back, little renjun has been pushed to the back, no one hears me when i speak and never listens to what i say, it's all about jaemin now and i guess i just have to get use to that.
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again sorry for the last update and i hope you like this chapter, this was just a filler because i still have to work harder up until the actual plot, and renjun is a mood tbh 😂 i love all of you readers and sorry if any mistakes still gotta edit ♡