roommate // norenmin

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hello everyone i am back !! sorry for being gone for so long, so after the whole my bf cheated on me situation i began to realize i don't need some stupid boy to love me so now im slowly in the process of learning how to love myself and it's made my life happier, so everyone if you're struggling with anything and mostly self love please love yourself, you will be happier trust me, ily all and thanks for cheering me up in the author note ♡
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renjun's p.o.v

"renjun we need to talk"

i dropped my spoon back into my cereal and glanced up at jaemin, it was only morning and he wanted to talk, couldn't he let this wait out until later or until he forgets, but it's na jaemin, he will never forget.

"listen jaemin, nothing is wrong, i am perfectly fine i just wanted to go for a walk and visit my favorite bridge" okay maybe some of this was lies but i really did want to visit my favorite bride, everything is not okay though but it's not like i can just tell jaemin that i am hurt and upset about how close him and jeno have gotten, that's so embarrassing.

"listen here renjun i know when you're lying, i have known you long enough to also know when something is bothering you so if you don't tell me right now i will get jeno out here too, now please tell me what is going on"

i sighed and knew the only way to get out of this was to just tell him, tell him how much i hate that jeno is only talking to him and not paying any attention to me, he will make fun of me though and that's what i fear the most, but would it really be better if he got jeno out here?" the answer is probably not. i guess i will just have to tell him then maybe hide from them for the rest of my life, sounds like a plan.

"fine, you want to know why i have been distant from everyone it because no one cares for me, they all have someone to talk to and someone they're really close with except for me, it was jeno but since you came back he has only talked to you and always sleeps in your room, he left me all alone in our room while it was thundering and you know how terrified i am of thunder, so no everything isn't okay and i just want someone to actually acknowledge me and treat me with love" finally i felt everything lift off my chest, except for the nervousness of what jaemin might say, that's what i feared the most.

jaemin's p.o.v

jaemin was shocked, he never knew renjun had felt this way, he didn't know he was one of the main causes renjun was so upset and "depressed", everyone thought that maybe he just missed his family but no the boy just wanted some attention. jaemin looked back up to renjun after processing everything he said to see that renjun's eyes were filled with tears and his hands were shaking, jaemin rushed to renjun and pulled him into a hug, the boy had began to cry and jaemin could feel his heart break. if only renjun had told him then he would have let him hang out with him and jeno, they could have all cuddled on bed together and watched scary movies until late at night.

he would have to tell jeno how renjun has been feeling, obviously knowing that renjun would never tell jeno to save himself from embarrassment. jaemin found it kind of cute though, renjun got himself all upset just because jeno wouldn't give him his attention, jaemin felt his heart began to beat a little faster after realizing that he thought renjun was cute when wanting attention, never has he felt this kind of feeling, but strangely he loved it.
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(not edited sorry)
sorry this is short but thank you all for reading and staying even after all my bad writing and horrible update schedule, i really want to make the next chapter long, so i might do 1,000 words, please look forward to it, anyways jaemin is catching something for renjun, hopefully the plot to this story comes soon but i still have some ideas before anything happens, also if anyone needs someone to talk to about life or just to be friends i am always open, ily all ♡