roommate // norenmin

다섯

im like literally the worst author and writer in the whole world and i suck at updating :((
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renjun's pov

i was sitting quietly at the bridge until i began to hear my name being called, was someone really looking for me ? wow. they actually seem to care now or maybe they just don't want to get in trouble if i end up becoming sick. when i turned around though i was more surprised to see that it was jeno and jaemin, i tried to brush the tears of my cheeks but just seeing them together caused me to cry even harder.

jaemin was the one to come up to me and pull me down from the bridge, he hugged me and tried to shield me from the rain as much as possible but i honestly wouldn't care if i was just stuck outside in the rain for hours right now. i could tell that he wanted to say something but no words seem to be able to come out, meanwhile jeno just stood there looking down at his feet, was jaemin the only one that really cared ? i bet jeno didn't even want to come and find me, he wanted jaemin all to himself. im glad jaemin cared though, me and him also use to be very close, it was always me, jeno, and jaemin, the best trio ever.

i miss our days together, i just want those days back where we would go outside and play together, cuddle up on the couch and watch disney movies, everything was so much better back then. i can't turn back time though and i will just have to live with the thought of jeno loving jaemin more than me. while i was in my thoughts i didn't realize that i was crying even harder than before and that i was also on jeno's back, this was heaven to me. how can he even hold me, am i too heavy ? i wanted to tell him i could walk myself so he didn't have to struggle but i was really enjoying the feeling of his skin after not being in contact for so long.

we finally reached home and i knew jaemin wanted to talk, i wasn't really sure if it was a good or bad thing, i surely wasn't going to open up and tell him how i've really been feeling so i would need to come up with a lie, or i could tell him about how i've been feeling and ignore the subject towards him and jeno.

we walked up into jaemin's room, it had a mix of jaemin's smell and of course jeno's because of all the time he spent in here. i remember when our room use to smell like me and him but it has slowly disappeared with everyday he was gone. we all laid down on jaemin's bed and got under the covers, we all were cuddling and i finally felt a bit of peace after all that happened. jeno was pressed against my back and his warmth made my heart flutter, and for some reason with jaemin pressed to my chest i felt the same exact feeling as i did with jeno, what could this mean ?
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okay sorry for being a bad writer lmao, i was gonna make this longer but im literally gonna have fifty million breakdowns over a stupid boy, hope you all forgive me, again im sorry but i hope you enjoy whatever this is, if you have any ideas on what i should do in the future for this book don't be afraid to private message me and i will give your ideas some thought, love you all thanks for reading ♡