Best friends, best friend 💔 - Lil Xan

Chapter 30

Gabi's POV
"I'm gonna miss you so fucking much Diego." I mumble hugging my boyfriend who is about to leave me for about a month, I was at the airport with him and he's about to go through security and leave me.

"I know love but I'll call and text as much as I possibly can and you know how much I love you." He says and I smile through the pain I'm currently feeling at the thought of not seeing Diego almost everyday.

"I love you too D. So much." I say squeezing him tighter.

"Diego. I hate to ruin the moment but we gotta start moving." Stat says and Diego looks down at me.

"I love you baby so fucking much and you don't have to worry about anything cause Ethan promised to take you to set with him so you won't have to be alone and you can hang out with Emma and Brielle and Liv. And you have all those big shoots coming up. I'm so proud of you babygirl. I promise this month is going to fly by." He says smiling making me smile.

"I love you too D and I know I'll be okay but I'm just gonna miss waking up to you laying in bed next to me or knowing that you're 10 minutes down the road. It's going to be a hard adjustment but just know I'm so proud of everything you've accomplished and you are so deserving of this tour and so I want you to really enjoy it and have a good ass time because you deserve it." I say and leans down and connects our lips for the last time for a month.

"Text me when you land please." I ask after we pull away from each other's lips.

"I will baby. But you have my flight number you can track it." He says.

"I know but I just want to make sure." I say and he chuckles and nods his head and pecks my lips once more before we untangle ourselves from one another's arms and he starts walking away while I stand there and let a tear run down my face.

"Don't cry Gabs. He's gonna be back." Ethan says, yes Ethan came so he could say goodbye to Diego and drive me home.

"I know he's gonna be back but he's gonna be gone a long time and it's gonna be hard." I say and Ethan pulls me into his arms and hugs me tightly.

"C'mon love, lets get you home." Ethan says picking me up so I'm wrapped around him like a koala with my face stuffed into his neck.

He walks out to his car and sets me into the passenger seat and closes the door before walking around and getting into the driver seat. I buckle my seatbelt while he starts the car and then I lean my head against the window and close my eyes and feel the tears stream down my face but I don't make any sounds.

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I guess I must have fallen asleep because when I wake up I'm in my bed. I cuddle deeper into my pillow and let out a sigh before grabbing my phone and checking the time. Diego's plane is still in the air it's like a 13 hour plane ride and it's only been 5 since we left the airport meaning he's really only been on the plane for 3 or 4 hours. I hate this it makes me so anxious waiting.

I get out of bed and walk out into the living room and don't see Ethan so I open his bedroom door and he's laying there watching tv. He looks up at me and opens his arms and I walk towards him and crawl onto his bed and then onto his lap and I cry into his shoulder while he rubs my back in attempts to calm me down.

"Shh, it's gonna be okay Gabs I promise." He whispers and I feel like a baby right now which causes me to start hysterically laughing causing Ethan to look at me like I'm insane which causes me to laugh even more even though there are tears still steaming down my face.

"I don't get it, what's so funny?" Ethan asks.

"I'm acting like such a fucking baby. I mean you would think someone died the way I'm acting. God I fucking hate myself." I say laughing and crying all still at the same time.

"It's okay to be upset Gabi. Your boyfriend just got on a plane to Finland and is going to be in a completely different time zone for the next few weeks. You are allowed to have feelings and to cry." Ethan says and it makes me stop laughing and it also makes my tears slow down a little.

"Fuck I just feel like such a little bitch." I mumble cuddling into Ethan.

"You're not a little bitch Gabs I promise it's normal to feel like this." He says and I nod.

"I just wanna get really drunk and really high." I mumble.

"You can't you have that shoot tomorrow." Ethan reminds me and uses his thumbs to clear my face of any tears.

"Oh shit I forgot." I mumble rolling my eyes.

"What companies it for?" He asks chuckling slightly at my eye roll.

"Brandy Melville, my favorite clothing brand of all time." I say.

"That's actually really cool that you're becoming a regular model for your favorite store." He says and I nod my head agreeing with him.

"Hey do you have to film tomorrow?" I ask and he nods his head yes.

"My shoot is from 6 to 2 will you still be on set by the time I'm done?" I ask.

"No." He says and I frown a little.

A/N: sorry for such a shit chapter, promise they'll get better