Come Back Home (RM Fanfic)

Chapter 44

BTS- Paradise

After a few days, I was back at work. The boys were constantly worried and watching me. It was sweet but slightly annoying at times. I adored my boys, but It was irritating being treated like glass. Being back to work was refreshing but I had to keep my personal problems locked away. It was difficult being around Namjoon and acting like everything was fine.

Our status as a couple was still a thing. So, acting like everything was perfect was a must. He would hold me close and beam at me. Wrap his arm around my waist and peck me on the cheek.
It was both heaven and hell for me. It hurt so much but felt so good.

I cherished the moments when we had to act because it was like nothing had happened. When we were at home with no prying eyes or cameras, reality would hit. The pain would return tenfold, but I would smile through it and act like nothing was wrong. I chose to hide it from everyone because I didn't want to cause issues for Bangtan. I would never be able to forgive myself if I caused a rift. As the days would go by I thought more and more about ending the relationship with Namjoon.

I loved him, but I didn't want to trap him in this relationship that he didn't seem to want any longer. Yoongi's words would come back to me and I would question everything all over again. John was still an issue but there hadn't been any news about him. I made me antsy and anxious. He had to be up to something and thought would cause dread to settle in the pit of my stomach. It was like he was a ghost.

The police couldn't find evidence of who killed my tutor. Today I had the day off and spent the day cleaning my dorm. Listening to music and thought about pursuing a new hobby. With the thought in mind, I decided to look for the nearest dance studio. Dancing was something I had always wanted to take up. With the money I made working for Big hit made it a possibility.

Another thing had shocked me when I had returned from the hospital. I had been given paid time off for the time I was gone. Naturally, I tried to talk the CEO out of it, but he refused with a smile. A new Tutor had also been found for me and my Korean was getting better. While in the hospital I was appreciative of the Korean I had been able to pick up. It made things less intimidating.

It's uncomfortable to be surrounded by people that you can't understand. It also made me question everything that came out of their mouth. The nurses and techs tried their best to speak English around me. I was grateful, but I also felt bad for making them uncomfortable in return.

It was nice to just take my time and look around instead of being in a rush. I noticed a lot of cute looking buildings and some amazing smelling food. My nose led me to a cute little cafe called Little Comforts. The inside was filled with warm colors with a touch of black. The back contrasted the warm hues, so It wasn't as overwhelming. I assumed the owner used suck bright colors to promote comfort and increase the appetite of their customers.

In the back of my mind, I realized I would have to order myself and I was worried my Korean wasn't advanced enough to do so. Then again, I wouldn't know unless I tried. I approached the cashier slightly nervous but determined. I wanted to be able to start doing things on my own and stop using my friends as a crutch. I didn't like having to rely on them so heavily. If it continued, then It would become a bad habit and never be able to gain back the Independence.

I rather be able to rely on myself, not a man. If he left me, then what would I do without him? With a smile, I greeted the girl and glanced over the menu. It was in hangul naturally and I was happy that I had been learning to read it for a long while now. I had a lot of time to study when I had been hospitalized. So, I was able to read the menu.

I ordered a Frappe and a small snack and found a seat near the window as I waited. Glancing around I noticed the cafe was well decorated and colorful. The more I looked around the more I loved it. I knew I was going to become a regular if I enjoyed the food and drinks sold there. After a couple of minutes, I had my order and had continued on my self-appointed mission. Before long I found a dance studio next to a store selling Kpop merch.