Past of Ashes. [DRAMA AU] X Reader

Ch. 3: Serendipity

Hey! Author Amy here, I just want to give a quick warning to everyone on this fan fiction. It will contain heavy topics and dark themes. PLEASE read at your own risk! Don't proceed if you are sensitive to sensitive material like blood, drugs, anxiety, abuse, or death. Thank you again.

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As I was standing there spacing out, I soon felt a pair of strong but gentle arms wrap around me. He sauntered up to me and gently laid his head down onto my shoulder. I could smell his cologne as it wafted to my nose. I close my eyes and breathe him in.
It was a mixture of silver sage and lavender. It was my boyfriend, snapping me back from la la land.

"Y/N, are you okay? You look dazed." He chuckled into my ear. I instantly froze in his arms, stiffening up in reflex. He noticed my slight hesitation and loosened his arms from around me immediately and stepped back. I didn't mean to chase him away. It's just that after a few bad experiences I had in the past with Jimin, I couldn't help but have an instant reaction to clam up as a defense mechanism.

I frown and turn to look back at him.

"I– S-sorry." I stutter as I turned forward again to see what I was doing. The sink was filled with dishes and the water was overflowing. He took note of my current dazed state and leapt forward to turn the sink off as it started to get too full.

"Y/N! You left the water on." He yelped out, obviously teasing me. I knew it was a joke. He wasn't scolding me. I knew that, and yet, my body just did the one natural thing it was so used to doing in the past: cry and begin to start panicking.

"O-oh, g-god Yoongi. I-I'm so sorry! I'm so s-sorry, please f-forgive me!" You scream out and started falling to your knees, having an anxiety attack. He gasped sharply, picking up on your distress and wrapped his arms around you. He went down to the floor with you and held you close. You were hyperventilating.

"Y/N, Y/N! Calm down. It's okay. Do your breathing exercises like we talked about, okay?" He folded his legs and sat you comfortably in his lap. He had one arm around your back to stabilize you and stroked your hair with the other. You sobbed in his neck, bawling. You couldn't breathe.

"N-no, I c-can't." You gasped out, not allowing the air flow to hit your lungs.
But he kept talking you through it. Softly repeating that you had to breathe while rubbing your back with a gentle touch. He whispered over and over that everything would be okay to reassure you.

Yoongi was perfect. He knew just what to do, what to say, and what you needed at the correct time.

After you quieted down a bit, and your breathing finally returned to normal levels, you nuzzled your face into his chest and mumbled.
"I-I'm so tired."

He smiled down at your weak form. He could tell you were tired.
"You do look tired. Would you like me to carry you to bed?" He asked softly in your ear. You only nodded once but without any hesitation or second guessing from Yoongi, he scooped you up in his arms. You instinctively wrapped yours around his neck and held on. He left the kitchen and ascended the stairs, stopping at your door to nudge it open, but you protested by shaking your head.

"N-no, I wanna sleep with you tonight." You say as you peer up at him, boring an exhausted gaze. He furrowed his brows at you, feeling worried.

"But Y/N, you've never done that before? Not since I brought you back home from that night. I don't want to stress you out. I know you have bad memories of being in bed with someone."

You shook your head again and laid it against his shoulder.
"No, I need it. I don't want to be alone. I w-want to be close to you." You softly whisper as you close your eyes.
He clicked his tongue and sighed out.

"Alright, at you wish. But, tell me the moment you feel uncomfortable and I will take you to your room." He left your doorway and walked a few feet down the corridor to the room next to his.

[Yoongi's P.O.V.]

I couldn't believe it when Y/N told me she wanted to go to my bed. It honestly shocked me. I just hope she won't regret her decision later on and have another meltdown like the one in the kitchen. All I want is the best for her. She's such a sweet girl. I hate seeing her in pain and so scared. She meant way too much to me for her to get repeatedly hurt. I just pray that I am doing the right thing. I look at her as I walk to the side of my King sized bed. Her sleeping form was the cutest thing ever. She did this adorable action with her nose when she slept. She would hold her hands up to her face and scrunch her nose. Almost reminiscent of a squirrel, or a bunny rabbit. I yank down the blue covers as I held her steadily in my arms. After making sure the blankets were pulled down far enough, I laid her down. At that moment, she opened her beautiful eyes and looked up at me. I pulled the blankets back up and over her to tuck her in. I leaned down to kiss her forehead. I clicked the night light on for her and flipped the bedroom light switch off.

As the flourescents clicked off, the movement of twinkling stars and colorful planets danced along the ceiling. That was an item Y/N loved. I bought it specially for her the first week I had brought her back to my house. She didn't like sleeping in the dark. As I was about to turn to leave the room, I heard her call my name.

"Y-yoongi?"

I stopped and looked back with a smile on my face.
"Don't worry, Y/N. I'm just going to get my coffee and I'll come back up here to watch over you."

She pouted, slightly sinking down under the covers so that I could only see her eyes.
"C-can you come here? Give me a kiss?"

I playfully scoff at her adorable nature. "I'll only be gone a second. You are so cute." I strolled back to her side as she pulled down the top comforter. She was blushing.

"No, I'm not!" She grumbled and shot me a look. That only made me grin wider. I leaned down to her face and whispered something to her.

"Yes, you are." I pressed my lips to hers, giving her a gentle kiss and then pull away. Y/N reached out to hold my hand.
"Yoongi, you're always staying up so late. It's the music, right?" She asked.

"Yes, the music," I confirm, smiling even more at her. "I'll be okay. I'll come back."

♤♤♤

Coming back up to the room, I gently nudged the door closed with my foot and went to the free side of my bed where I climbed in under the covers. I took a sip of my freshly brewed coffee, then set it on my nightstand on top of a cork coaster. I take this moment to peer over at Y/N.

"Hey, Y/N... are you asleep?" I ask quietly as I touch her arm gently. There was no response. So I came to the conclusion that she must have fallen asleep while I was downstairs making my coffee. I smiled and pulled out my laptop, immediately going back to my work to finish where I left off.

"She's the cutest fucking thing."

[END: CHAPTER 3]