Numb
That's how my hands feel
The notes I play travel so far
Yet stray away from my ear
There are indents on the tips of my fingers
From where I pressed too hard
For just a little too long
That pain always lingers
Now it's always the same
Just pushing
And playing
Until I am numb
So I'll keep doing this
Splitting my skin down to the bone
Searching and bleeding just to achieve perfect tone
Honestly at this point
It's too late to turn back
I could not take the whispers of
'You failed'
'Quitter'
'Waste'
For there are too many things which I lack
Although I am deaf
To the sounds I make
I have keep pushing
Keep going
And playing
Until my fingers break
Note:
god
I am so fucked if I lose one of my hands
I guess then I'll just become a 'pirate conductor'
TBH I should probably like,, tone down my practice hours my hands like
(3-4 hours a day kms)
Are literally numb a lot??
But hey practicing is like free therapy and if anyone tells me to stop I just play louder
Or put my mute on whatever
Fuck you Sharon I'm goiNg to pLay Bach you whore
Also I highly recommend the movie August Rush
Mmm what a good one
Bye
YOU ARE READING
Honey
PoetryHaha guess what this was gonna be a serious thing but like most things in my life- Self sabotage took over Aka this is a big ol' 'book' of shitposts and small moments of mini mental breakdowns Enter at yer own risks kiddos
