Honey

waste

im in one of those moments. 

where time seems to be fleeting, yet everything is very far away.

i have two more years

two years to fill in of just being a kid

i shouldn't just be sitting here and wasting time by myself

 if my mom wasn't so controlling, 

i would be out there

watching movies and eating junk food with the people going through the same motions as i am

im done feeling lonely

this is the time during the year when i start to think

' i could die any day'

thats really weird

so i should be out there

i should be talking and making connections with people 

that doesn't mean i want to exhaust myself

because alone time is good too

i just want the limited time i have left before school starts

to be filled with memories of

'remember that summer...'

i want an adventure

that doesnt mean hardcore drinking and drugs

heck no

i just want to watch films and eat and laugh and live

im done wasting my time here

im done filling and feeling like my life is just so full 

of waste