Honey

Connections/ fuck dating in H.S.

So like,,
People my age,, well most of them,, are just so like hellbent on having a relationship with someone?? ( well girls at my school)

Like I don't get why either
It's going to end, one of them is going to leave either way

'Oh I just want to get experience'
'I love them'

bUt like
It's so stressful
Because on top of school, teen angst, drama, family life, part time jobs, athletics
These chiLdren are participating in what are, again for the most part, stupid and toxic relationships??

I honestly think part of it has to do with loneliness
Like oh you're lonely , I'm lonely, let's be lonely together!!

Like??

I get that I'm kind of a cynic ( but also a romantic like??) but I just can't imagine dating at this time in our lives

Like
I'm trying to balance:
Sports
Cello
Part time job
Studying
Social life
Taking care of myself
Along with like trying to sleep
And a bunch of personal things

How in the hELL can I fit another person in there??

And I mean, I'm going to leave this behind
So why bother to make a connection that will only end up hurting me?
I'm nOT going to find 'true love' here

Maybe I'll find it at college, maybe in my career

But honestly, this is the time in our lives where we get to be selfish
We get to be kids

People around me are growing up so fast and they don't know what they're doing

They're focused on 'being a grown up' and doing things they don't understand

I hate the social standards around me.
I mean,, listen,, I go to an all girls school

So girls aren't around guys
And guys aren't around girls

So guess what

When guys from our 'brother school' get together with those girls from mine

They don't know what in the fuck to do

The guys are assholes ( I mean seriously they need to tone down their testosterone and stupidity)
And the girls just get

So stupid

I lost my train of thought

Point is: fuck dating in high school NO ONE is emotionally, mentally, or physically able to have a healthy relationship at this age

And if I wErE to ever date when I'm like a senior,,

It would probably be a Sibley kid because, for the most part, they know how to act around the female population (the nice ones not the cocky, stupid, know-it-all, dick ones)
((.. totally not @ the hot bassist in my orchestra))
( I cAn appreciate )

Highly doubt I'll find the needle in the haystack @ thE acAdeMy

Emma u kno what I'm talking about
if you actually read this congrats on getting through my A.D.D. Thoughts

I say 'like' way too much

Oh well