In the Mix of It All .

Explanation .

A'Janae | Nae .

I rinsed off the rest of the dishes that were still soapy and put them in the dry rack. I got the drying towel and dried off my hands and turned to go upstairs, but ended up bumping into Melanie. She looked around the kitchen and laughed a little. "Just because I let you stay here didn't mean I wanted you to turn into my little maid. But thanks for the help. Besides, why are you overworking yourself? You need time to relax and just chill instead of doing stuff that'll put more stress on you."

I sighed "I want to chill, but I feel like if I'm doing something productive, it'll cross my mind and I don't have time to overthink and stress out over his mistake."

Melanie looked at me confused. "So what you gonna do? I mean... he cheated and has a kid. Y'all gon breakup or...?"

I had to think about this. I mean... I coulda sworn this was the man that was bound to be my husband. What went wrong? What made him cheat on me? Melanie wiped the tear I didn't know had slipped. She frowned "I'm sorry..." I just shrugged it off.

"It's ok because I should've been thinking that through before. Oh my gosh Melanie it's falling apart. It's all falling apart."

Melanie looked at me confused af. "What's falling apart?"

"My future. We...we were supposed to get married and-."

"Oh...well I'm sure there's someone else out there."

I felt the tears coming on stronger. "But I don't want anyone else." I said softly.

Melanie gave me a hug. I was so serious when I said it too. Even after finding out that the man that I love to death has cheated on me and has a kid, I still love him... How is this possible? I slid the lock screen on my phone and checked my messages and voicemails. I had slept the night over Mel's so I'm expecting a few things. Starting at 3am this morning, I had 54 messages, 10 missed calls, and 4 voicemails from Rashad. Nobody knows how bad I wanna talk to him, but I can't look into his eyes without the pain coming back. I sighed and then decided on going back by the house without telling him.

"Mel I think I'm gonna go by the house... I don't know when I'll be back but I'm gonna leave my stuff here for now if that's fine."

"Yeah that's fine."

I nodded once more and then grabbed my phone and car keys.

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The ride here was peaceful...but as I stand on the porch, all I can do is look at the door. Maybe I was wrong for being here...Maybe I'm just getting in the way. Well, we're about to find out. I sighed and unlocked the front door to what I still manage to call home sweet home. Maybe not so sweet anymore...

I walked into the living room and Rashad was on the couch sleep with ESPN still on. I kinda smiled but then shook it away. I'm here strictly for business. And it's kind of awkward how he knew I had to come home some time soon so he stayed at my house... Looking around, my parents still weren't back. Alrighty then...

He was still out cold as I stood over him. I took a moment to stare at him for just a bit longer before nudging him. His eyes slowly opened and when he realized it was me, he sat up with lightning speed and wrapped his arms around me. "Baby I'm so sorry. I mean when I say I never meant to hurt you." I listened as every line he knew outta the lame old book spilled out his mouth. The straight face I had never faded as I awkwardly patted his back. "Look, um...'Shad. I'm only here for business. To talk." His happiness lightly faded. "Well ok. At least you're here. So um..." I sat on another couch opposite from him. I tried to hide the hurt but the lumps were still in my throat and would'nt let me speak right.

"So how is he?" This is a question I gotta know. It'll tell me when he cheated on me.

"He's uh... he's 4." My heart sank. 4 years ago? Me and Rashad have basically been on and off since the 6th grade so... I give up on this investigation.

"Oh. Um, ok. Well...I think I should head out..." I started walking away but he grabbed me from behind.

"Nae please don't leave again. I missed you like crazy. I can't let you leave." Why haven't I left yet?

I turned around. "Rashad..." But before I could continue, his lips met with mine. His tongue didn't even ask for entrance, it just broke in. What am I doing? I tried to fight it but the kiss grew deeper. I didn't even recognize we were now laid out on the couch. The kiss never broke until he started moving down to my neck. My breathing started becoming short as he continued to kiss me. His hand started working on getting my shirt off. My phone on the table next to us started ringing. I was in the zone and didn't wanna answer it but I know that what I'm doing isn't what I came for. I reached out for the phone but every time I tried to get it, he got rougher and in more of a hurry.

"Rashad..."

He kept kissing and working on my shirt. "Rashad please..." He paused right where he was, a tad bit frustrated.

"Fine A'Janae. You want your phone? Get it." He handed me my phone and got up. He walked upstairs as I answered my phone and watched him leave.

"Hello?"

"Hey girl. You good?" It was Melanie.

"Yeah. I was uh, just on my way out to come back over.."

"Oh ok. See you when you get here."

I hung up the phone and sighed. I got up my car keys and decided to leave.

So much for talking...

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On the way home I decided to stop by the store. I was walking down the chip aisle when I bumped into this guy with some dreads. He looked down at me and said "I'm sorry. 'Scuse me..." I looked up at him and then my mouth dropped.

"I'm sorry sir. It's all my-...wait. Takeoff? From Migos?" Holy...

He chuckled "Yeah that's me." 

I shook my hand and gave him a hug. "Wow... it's nice to meet you!"

"It's nice to meet you too beautiful." I started blushing like crazy but tried to hide it.

"Aww. Is she blushing over me??"

I laughed a little "Whaaaat?"

He laughed too. "But for real tho ma. You got a numba or sum I can keep in touch wit you?"

No he didn't just...What just happened..?

"Oh uh, sure." I wrote down my number and handed it to him.

He hugged me once last time and then said "Well I gotta go. See you later lil mama?" He winked and I started blushing again.

"Yeah. Of course."

And before he got a chance to walk away, Quavo walked into the same aisle smackin' down some chips. Takeoff introduced us and then they started to go. Right before they walked out the door, Quavo spun around. "You got a friend wit some booty that I can-" He got cut off when Takeoff grabbed him back to leave. I was left in the aisle dyingggg. I was still in shock tho, but aye, anything can happen around here.

(A/N): Weak at myself y'all... Okay anyway, make sure you comment and vote. More coming soon! Don't forget to check multimedia for a pic of Melanie.