words for the wind

XXVIII

fill me up

you told me you loved me

right before you left again.

i'm left black and blue all over,

it's okay, you fulfilled the temporary job.

because even though your eyes were cold,

your touch was warm.

that's all i needed tonight,

and any frigid night

that you decide you need my warmth too.

when i left

you told me you loved me,

and i ignored you.

i'll let you believe your own lies.

because your words are empty

just like your heart.

for you've given too much of it away

in search of someone, something

to make you feel less lonely.

i can't blame you

my expectations are empty too.

i know you lie to me with those pretty lips

telling me you love me.

every time. every time.

please stop.

i'm not a fool.

save those precious words for another warm body.

i want to tell you don't worry, you won't hurt me.

but i realized these lies

that you whisper,

these words followed with the sound of a door closing

are not meant for me.

for you are trying to convince yourself.

so go on darling, say it as many times as you need.

as many times as it takes to no longer bleed.

I understand,

because i am also empty

looking for someone and something to fill me as well.