JUST BREATHE (Rick Grimes Romance)

Chapter 14

It was bizarre starting a relationship in this word. The normal rules didn't apply much less exist. It wasn't as if you could do the normal things like going for supper or the movies. No long walks holding hands whispering secrets in each other's ears. There was no dating to speak of. No waiting by the phone wondering if he will call. No gab sessions with girlfriends where you gushed about your crush over drinks.

No finding love in this world was a whole other thing all together. Now your relationship unfolded out in the open in front of other peoples eyes. There was no dating and becoming boyfriend/girlfriend you were an instant couple. You didn't start at the beginning and work your way up because you started much further along. You started in a serious binding commitment that was already predetermined weather good or bad it was to last. Once you started down that road with someone it felt as if it was carved in stone.

In part this was because none of us knew what tomorrow let alone the next hour would bring. One minute you could be laughing and the next dead from any number of unforeseen dangers. This ever present fear was carnal and permanently lodged in your minds eye. Living daily under this constant pressure changed the way you felt and perceived everything. There was no time for playing games or testing the waters. It was what it was plain and simple. You were either all in or all out.

So it was that Rick and I began despite all the odds stacked against us. It seemed as if we only caught moments here and there where we could be just the two of us. With everyone in the group depending on Rick for everything there was always something. It was frustrating sharing him constantly with the entire camp when I wanted more than five minutes alone with him. That's why when he took my hand after supper and began to lead me away from the others I felt like a giddy school girl. Quietly he lead me to the stairwell that went to the landing high above on the south facing wall of the camp. When he opened the door at the top of the stairwell I saw that he had already brought up a blanket and a thermos.

Squeezing my hand Rick looked at me shyly, "I see you all day long yet I miss you. I thought maybe we could watch the sunset together."

My heart melted at his simple gesture, "Its perfect." Reaching up I placed a kiss on his lips.

Rick sat with his back against the pilar while I sat between his legs and leaned back against his chest. It felt amazing to be held in his arms just the two of us without the prying eyes of others. I closed my eyes letting his masculine scent wash over me. I couldn't remember feeling so content, so happy.

"So how is it that I get you all to myself?" I asked snuggling deeper into his arms. Taking a drink of my tea I admired the vibrant hues of the sunset.

Rick let about a short laugh, "Daryl and Michone know where we are if there's an emergency. I wanted to spend some real time with you."

I watched as Rick slowly laced our fingers together. "Did you now," I teased. "So would you say you were a romantic before all this?"

Rick sighed and pushed his face into my hair. When he didn't answer I tipped my head so I could see him. He was staring off into what was remaining of the sunset chewing his bottom lip. I touched his jaw trying to bring his attention back to me. "Hey Rick what's wrong?"

Dropping a quick kiss to my forehead I could feel his body tense, "Nothing."

I pushed up and sat up moving so I could face him. "What's going on?"

Rubbing his hand across his jaw Rick gave me a quick smile. When he tried to pull me back into his arms I held my ground refusing to let him dismiss what I so obviously felt. Running his hand threw his hair he smiled at me shyly.

"This is kind of embarrassing," he stopped searching for the right words. "I haven't been with that many women. I dated a few in high school but things only went so far. When Lori came along we were in grade 11 and it was only her ever since. I guess what I'm saying is my experience is limited to her and it wasn't that often in our final years together."

I couldn't help the laughter that bubbled from my throat which only caused Rick to withdrawal further. Reaching out I cupped his face in my hands forcing him to look at me. Leaning over I gave him a long lingering kiss thrilling in the feeling of his full lips against mine. Pulling away just far enough so I could look into his eyes I struggled to remember what I wanted to say. "Are you seriously apologizing for not being a slut. For not banging every woman who crossed your path. Do you know how much of a turn on loyalty and being faithful is? Considering how hot you are I know you had plenty of opportunity. I know some of the women here at camp have tried and you chose not to when it would have been easy to say yes. The fact you haven't given it away freely makes me want to be with you that much more. It says that what is going on between us actually means something."

Ricks smile widened as I explained myself. Taking my hand in his he pulled me back into his arms. "What's going on between us....what does it mean to you exactly?"

I hesitated unsure of how to answer. I hated talking about my own feelings, "Well it means I like you a lot. What does it mean to you."

I listened to Rick's laughter rumble low in his chest, "It means I can't stop thinking about you night and day. It's as if I was walking along in the dark only able to see in black and white. Then suddenly there you were and everything became warm and all I could see was vivid colour. You mean more than I've ever told you."

Dropping his head Rick began to nibble on my earlobe, "I like the man I am when I'm with you."

My heart had melted and I was pudy in his hands. Slowly he ran his hand up the length of my neck tipping my head back so he could kiss me. Slowly, erotically he explored by lips in a lazy un rushed kiss. My aching need exploded within me yelling for satisfaction. Tangling my fingers in his hair I pulled him closer demanding more. I was rewarded when Rick moaned taking control of the kiss bending me to his will.

Ricks hands were everywhere while his arm kept me pinned to his chest. When I tried to turn so I could face him he tightened his embrace so I couldn't move. "I like you like this. Open and free for me to explore how I've wanted to for so long." The low timbers of his husky voice making me wetter as my muscles clenched with need.

His thumb cliched back and forth across my nipple making them painfully hard as he cupped my breasts. My eyes were rolling in the back of my head with pleasure as his hands dropped lower to my pants line. Taking his time he undid the button and achingly slowly slid the zipper down. Between his hands and his crushing kisses I couldn't think straight.

When I felt his fingers touch the sensitive skin above my panty line I could stop the moan that tore from my throat. He was driving me crazy with need. I felt so wild I was ready to beg. I could take another second I wanted to be able to touch him so bad. I desperately tried to turn but again Rick wouldn't let me.

I nearly came apart when he huskily whispered his voice raw with need, "It's about you. Tell me what you need. Show me what you want."

Never in my life had I felt so primal and wanton. I moaned with frustration as I arched my hips towards his hand. "Just say it...tell me what you want me to do," Rick ground out between kisses.

"I want you to touch me," I panted. "I need you to touch me." Reaching down I placed my hand over Ricks and slipped his fingers beneath my panty line.

Moments later I came apart ......

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