Egyptian Vanity

Nefelibata

You know when you say something so incredibly stupid to someone that all you want to do is cry, curl up in a dark corner and never return? Well, that was me right now. I cowered in the library, avoiding Logan like the plague. The whole conversation kept replaying in my head and the more I think about it, the more embarrassed I become. Complete foot in mouth situation that I desperately wanted to rewind and fix. I had rambled off my thoughts, like I always do, and now look where it got me. I'm so incredibly stupid. Which is why this book and library are going to become my new best friend.

Whenever I was around him I just seemed to say the most idiotic things that my brain could conjure up. He seemed to steal my filter every time we spoke and gives it back when he leaves. I can speak with other males and not stutter and confess my wishes to be seduced, take Donnie for example, I would never speak of such things with him but put me around my handsome boss and I seem to lose my mind. Speaking of Donnie, I really wanted to go to the garden and help him but my body was worn out, probably from trying to keep up with Logan's mood swings.

That was another thing. His mood was constantly changing. He comes across as this arrogant bachelor but he can be so sweet. He goes from complimenting my ass to helping me from having a panic attack back to talking about dirty things. He calls me babe and then calls me Ella, depending on his mood and it's giving me whiplash. I didn't want to say that he was temperamental, because that made it sound like he was angry, but he is. Mercurial seems like a more fitting word for him as he switches between personalities.

I sigh and bring the book down, marking the page before setting it on the coffee table. I couldn't concentrate on anything with all these thoughts rushing through my head. Reading usually helped in situations like this, as did baking but as cathartic as baking is, it didn't seem to be helping me out here. After I finished the rest of the desserts, I rushed down here to escape from any possible human contact. And isn't that why I'm here? To make money and to have some company while my parents are out exploring.

I needed to stop doing childlike things, like escaping my problems. The last thing I know that could take my mind off of today's events is most likely Donnie and the garden. I needed to pull on my big girl panties and deal with it. I wasn't going to let a few words ruin my summer vacation, even though I was working as a maid, I wanted to have fun and the garden made sure of that.

I found myself walking up the stairs, careful to not run into anyone. I still when I hear voice coming from around the corner. I quickly look around and find a door, I pull it open and hop inside. I leave a little crack in the door so I can see who is walking by, not that it matters because I don't know what they are saying. Though, my name is one word that I catch. I see that the two men that are walking are Logan and Hadem, the former being the one who spoke my name. I gasp when I see that they are coming my way, into that room. I quickly shuffle about and pull myself behind one of the leather chairs and hold my breath.

When they enter the office they switch and start to speak in English, why? I have no clue. Guilt rushes through me as now I realize that I'm eavesdropping. But what am I to do, jump right out saying sorry for listening in and for coming into a room that I know is off limits but I really just didn't want to face you,

"Why don't you just pursue her, Logan? It's obvious that you like her and she obviously likes you, too."

"She's too innocent, Hadem. You saw her, she fucking blushed when you asked her about her age."

"But you want her-,"

"I want her purity, that's it. It's pretty shitty of me to use a girl like her and then toss her to the side. I can tell that Ella isn't like all the other girls and she shouldn't be treated like them, either."