Stuck between worlds (Tokyo ghoul fanfic) [Book One]

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This story takes place 5 years before the main story

Arima had been gone for a few months. I was worried to death about him. I kept having these dreams that he was dead and it scared me. I kept having psychotic break downs during work and they got that bad I was put on paid leave until I 'got my shot together'
No one came to visit me and I didn't have anywhere to go. I don't know why but I felt lost without Arima. I couldn't do anything about this feeling of loss and my nightmares got so bad that I couldn't sleep.  I did tons of exercise to prevent me from sleeping. I felt so weak all the time but the psychotic dreams has stopped because we'll I didn't dream. I didn't have breakdowns because I was too tired to so I was able to go back to work. Everyone said I looked like shut and I thought it was because I snacked on a few biscuits while I had many coffees. When I went home I got rid of the biscuits and eat very little and continued to exercise a little more than usual. One day I was at work and Amon came over to me
"Natsumi Yasha. Am I correct? " He asked and I nod "Pardon my rudeness but you look very unwell. Are you eating alright and you look like you need some sleep". I shook my head "I'm fine. I just didn't have much for breakfast and I slept alright last night" I lie to him. "Alright Natsumi San. Make sure you look after yourself" he said "Thanks for your concer-" I had a dissy spell and fell on him.  I push myself off of him "I'm sorry sir, I didn't mean to do that." he sits me on a chair "let me get you something to eat then you can have a lie down." he walked off and came back with a sandwich then placed it in front of me "I'm not sure what you like so I got you egg and lettuce" I took a bite of the sandwich and it felt weird in my mouth.  I quickly swallow the bite and ate half the sandwich before getting up still feeling weak. "I'll take you home and you can lie down and have a nap." everything was blurry but I remember sitting down then I was on the ground with people around me. I know I had passed out because the dreams had come back.

I shot up as soon as I felt awake which wasn't a good idea. I was in thec CCG first aid room.  "Oh Natsumi san, you're awake" I nod "You passed out earlier so I took you here." Amon said. "Please take me home. I want to go home." I say standing up "Slow down Natsumi. I'll take you home but you need to take it slow. I don't want you hurting yourself." He said and put my arm around his shoulder. "You sound like Arima san" I say "You know special investigator Arima?" He asked "Yeah. He saved me and we live together." he was taken back by what I said. "I'm sorry I didn't know you where close to special investigator Arima" he bowed "Don't worry about the softie. He wouldn't care unless I was hurt" He drives me back to Arimas house and walks me in. "Thank you for taking me home. I really appreciate it." I say and invite Amon in "This is a wonderful place." "Yeah. Arima made me move in with him and I style this place up when he's gone" I say walking go the lounge room "Amon do you want to stay? It's the least I can do" I ask him "It's alright. I just wanted to help but I have to go back" he says "Thank you Amon." " Anytime Natsumi san" he said walking out.
I pull out my phone to text Arima

Hey Arima I was wondering when you would come back home?

I didn't get a reply. So I went to the kitchen feeling light headed. I know I was passed out because everything felt so light.

I was starting to wake up and everything was faint but I heard buzzing over and over. I heard a crash and yelling. Lots and lots of yelling. I could see white and I hope its Arima "Arima san? Its been so long" I whisper and he picks me up "Why did you do this to yourself?" he walks over to the couch and places me down "You're too light Yasha. You started yourself" He put his hand on my head "And you have a temperature now as well" he walked into the kitchen and came back with a cup of water. I tried to sit up but I fell backwards "You're weak from doing this to yourself. You need to tell me everything you did. Take your time" he helped me up
"it started because I couldn't sleep so I went to the training equipment and used that because I couldn't sleep then I started having weird images flash in my head and I kept breaking down during work and I was told to leave until I got better. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat. I couldn't do anything. The one time I did sleep you left me alone and told me you hated me." I say and he holds me close "you know I would never leave you alone. I should of stayed home with you" he says "Since its still early let's head out to a cafe or something." he helps me up "carry me please Arima san" I say and he gives me a piggy back. He goes to a small cafe called Anteiku. "Yasha it was you're 17th birthday not long ago right?" and I nod "this is my birthday gift for you" He sits me down at a table and there's a girl and boy with purple hair and the boy was running around "Ayato settle down" The girl said chasing him "settle down you two!" a man yelled "You cant control me forever gramps" The boy stuttered like he didnt know the words well. he did seem you but smart. As he ran he bumped into me and falls over and looks at me "What are you looking at?" He says looking at me "Can I ask whats happening?" I ask him "I want to leave. They baby me here" HE spits at me "How old are you?" "9" "I'm not sure whats going on but I would stay here. I lost all my family when I was 7 and it sucked. I was taken in to train to fight so I don't really know what its like to have fun and be a child. If you want to leave you must have a good reason but for your sake you should stay with you family" I say and he stands up "I'll think about it" He walks off "You handled that well" Arima said "Then again you always had a thing for children but refuse to find a lover" He smirks "I want to find the right guy. I don't want to have my heart ripped out and be stuck with you for the rest of my life" I smile "But that's not a bad thing right?" He asked "No you're lovely to be around. I just wish I had someone more feminine to hang out with from time to time" I say "about the lover thing, You might have already met the guy but haven't realised it yet" He smiles "I'll know it when I'm ready." I say and we order some coffee but which I didn't really drink "Yasha you need to drink. You haven't eaten in days you need your energy" I took a sip and look at him "That better my dear" I look at him with shock "Something wrong?" He asked "Why'd you call me 'my dear'" I ask "Because Ive known you for so long that we could be dating. You're 17 and I'm almost 19 so it cant be that bad" "Its been 10 years since we met. You are already a special class investigator but I'm not far off. You have almost died many times and scared me with the near deaths. God this sounds like a proposal. I'm so grateful for everything you've done for me. The home we share, The times you've saved me, Helping me with everything. I guess you call me anything you like except anything lover wise. I'm not ready for that yet" I finished the last of my coffee as I say that then Arima picks me up "If I'm going to call you my dear, You're gonna call me Kishou or something" He says and walks out the door "Wait! Thank you for the coffee." I laugh and Arima starts going home with me on his back "I don't feel as if I can call you that yet" I say "You've had the right for years. You're to polite for your own good." He continued to walk home and laid me on the couch and started to tickle me "Arima san!! Stop please" I laugh trying t push him off "Only if I can do something to you" He says and I look at him "What is that?" I say between giggle "A kiss from the most beautiful girl in the world" He says and looks me in the eye "Ok but on the cheek" I keep giggling and Arima moves his head closer to mine then his phone rings "Who is it now" He walked to his phone and I get up and hide from him. I see him walk into the lounge room "Yasha I know I jusr got back but I have a new assignment and I need to go to the office" He says "Yasha? Where are you?" He asked "Oh I'm sorry if you didn't want me to kiss you. I was just having a little fun" He says and I walk out "Its alright but take me with you. They refused me everyday I tried to come back" I say jumping "Ok but let me make you a sandwich" He says and walks into the kitchen and makes me a ham, cheese and tomato sandwich "Now I want you to eat this for me" He says and passes me the sandwich. I took a bite and the texture felt weird in my mouth but I continued to eat for Arima "well done my dear" He said after I finish the first half of the sandwich "Ok lets go to the office" He says and we walk outside and I follow him then I see a white car in the garage "When did you get this?" I ask him "I want to make sure we get around safely because of the up roar of ghoul activity in the 20th" He said and opened my door for me and I sat down "This is a really nice car" I say as I put on my seatbelt and Arima turns on the engine "Off we go" He says and drives off to the office but before we got there I final spoke "Arima san. If you're not careful I'm going to steal this car" I say and he chuckles at me "You have access to the car anytime you want. We will be going to work together unless someone has something else to do first" He says and pulls into the car park "I love you so much. You are like a sugar daddy to me I swear Arima san" I say getting out of the care slowly "I love you too but I don't like the sugar daddy part. You pay for things as well and you don't offer me sex. Not even a kiss" He pouts "I'm an innocent child Arima san" I look at him with childlike eyes "I cant wait till you're 18 so we can go drinking and have fun like adults" He says "Theres nothing stopping me from drinking if you by the drinks" I wink and we walk through the gates "Oh naughty now" He smirks at me and runs after me and pulls me into a hug "Arima san let me go!" I say and he keeps me in the hug but starts walking while holding me and I see Shinohara walking over to us "I see you're better Natsumi. Welcome back Arima" He looks at me "Should I ask?" I shake my head "Its a weird story" I say "Wait did you two start dating yet. You already live together and have acted cutesy for years and I'm guessing that you where having those episodes because Arima was away" He said "No Shinohara. We're not dating because she's waiting for the right man but she said some weird things earlier" He smirks "And now he wont let me go" I say pouting still in Arima's arm. "Also long story short Arima brought a care and I love it" I says and he ruffles me hair "Anyway I was told Arima was going to be here so I went to say hi. I'll leave you too this" He points to us and walks off "Arima can you let me go now?" I ask "No. You wont kiss me so I'm not letting you go" He says walking to the elevator "You messed up my hair and I call this assault. I can picture it now 'The CCG's reaper found guilty of assaulting an underage girl'" I giggle "You wouldn't" He says in a fake shocked voice "Oh yes I would the elevator opens and we walk to his office and his squad sees us "Please don't ask. Just know I said some bad things and he wont let me go" I say and his team nods "Does this have anything to do with the car?" One of Arima squad mates said and I nod "Did you disrespect the car" He said "No she called me a sugar daddy" Arima ruffles my hair "Stop it with the hair" I yell and his squad laughs "Arima we have a recap meeting in 5 minutes in meeting room 16 we're heading now" Another squad member said "Yasha is coming as well" He said and still holing me, takes me to the meeting and it sit through the meeting then once the meeting's done we walk out "Oh Yasha do you remember what today is?" He asked "No. What is it?" I ask "Off we go then" He gives a piggy back ride this time and takes me to the auditorium "Oh Awards today" I whisper and Arima puts me down and after a while I get called up "Natsumi Yasha moved from associate special class investigator to special class investigator" I walk up little did I know Arima was behind me and he was on the stage with me "Bet my record aye" He whispered in my ear then turned me around and kissed me on the lips "Congratulations my dear" and everyone cheered while we kissed. I was blushing so much and I wanted to run out after being called but luckily I was last. I walk out and Arima picks me up bridal style this time "Arima san everyone must think we're dating now" I hide my face "But my love I wanted my kiss from earlier" He smirks and takes me into a closet "Arima san no dirty thoughts. The kiss was far enough for me" I say "I wasn't going to try anyway. I though you might anted to hide from the crowd" He say and pulls me in for a protective hug "I'm sorry for being such a child. I heard from people that you had a hard time and had multiple psychotic episodes and screamed my name but no one wanted to contact me because I'm so scary. I wanted to cheer you up. I love you and I couldn't be here without you. Well done of special class. Cant believe you bet my record though" he kisses the top of my head. I know you don't want to date but remember I will always love you flaws and all" We just stood there hugging each other "I love you too Arima san. I would be dead if it wasn't for you" I let out a tear "Oh no don't cry. I never want to see you hurting." He says "Its not that Arima. Everytime I slept I saw you dead. Every episode I had you died by my hands" "I would never leave you that easily" He says then I had a sharp pain in my left side and I bend down "Yasha?" He looked concerned "Its my side. It hurts" I say "can you turn around quickly?" I ask and he turns around and I lift up my dress to see my side all red and puffy. "Arima san. Its the scar from ten years ago. Its infected and it hurts" I drop my dress and he picks me up "Hold on I'll get you to a hospital" He says rushing out "And right before the holidays season" I say "Dont worry about that! Worry about your health." He took me to the hospital. Turns out from all the stress I was under I caused stomach ulcers which infected the scar. I was told to take it easy and to rest up. I did that and it wasn't long until Arima's 19th birthday and one of my favourite times of the year. Christmas

Hello!! Crystal Rose here. This was officially the last chapter of 'Stuck between Worlds.' Well this is a special but you get what I mean. Anyway keep an eye out for my next book 'Stuck between memories' to come out next week keeping the schedule I have. Anyway I had fun writing this and I hope you enjoyed this. I know there's spelling and grammar errors all through this book but hopefully soon I'll go through and check it all. I'll hopefully do that after I finish the third book which I've already started. Anyway thank you for reading 'Stuck between Worlds.'

~Crystal Rose