Accidental • D.S

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Stella
funerals were always the worst for me. no matter who it was for, a piece inside me broke. my brothers was definitely the hardest i've been to. after my speech i cried so much tears. at the burial service i threw a white rose ontop of his wooden casket. "rest easy jay, love you always." i whispered through sobs.
after the burial service we went back to the family home for a little gathering but instead of chatting to mass amounts of upset family members, i brought cosmo up to my room while i attempted to pack up my things for finland. cosmo trotted into my room and hopped up onto my window seat. i followed his actions and took a seat next to him. i sighed as i looked out onto the streets of my old neighbourhood. cosmo panted, he seemed upset almost. dogs are very smart so i'm pretty positive he knew what was going on. if the obvious sight of people crying at a graveyard with him right next to me, also sobbing uncontrollably wasn't enough for him, i don't think he'd ever get it. jay was our best friend. jay was there for the three months i was away with cosmo and my mom and dad. jay was basically his dad as crazy as it sounds.

after a while of contemplating whether or not i should go down to my family, i finally gave in. i walked down the stairs alone, still extremely upset. i walked lazily over to my dad who was chatting with my aunt. without warning, i engulfed my dad into a bear hug. he immediately hugged back, rubbing my upper back, soothing me. i hated the fact that the majority of my family were moping around in my old house, i just wanted everyone to go home and for jay to come back and we could just go back to reality and watch lots of disney classics on the tv, but it would never be that way ever again.

everyone left the house and went home. i decided to call it a day and say goodnight to my parents. i gave them both squeezy, yet soothing hugs before i retreated to my bedroom to rest for the long flight in the morning.
i lay in bed, letting my mind run free and the first thing i thought about was daniel. i needed to hear his voice and feel his touch. i picked my phone up and dialled his number, not caring about the ten hour time difference. it was one am here so it was eleven am in finland. the phone rang three times and then there was a pick up. "hey baby." his raspy voice came down the line. "hey handsome." i replied, deflated. "you sound tired." "its one am, i am tired." i lightly giggled. "then why are you awake?" he queried. "i had to hear your voice so i could fall asleep with ease." i smiled. "you're the cutest." he laughed. "it's been two days and i miss you like crazy." "me too, i can't wait to see you tomorrow night." i replied.

Daniel
i walked backstage and looked at the huge crowd. we had one last song to preform. just as i was getting ready i felt a pair of tiny arms snake around my waist. i turned around almost immediately. there she stood. her tiny body latched onto mine. "do me proud." she smiled. i pulled her in and gave her a quick deep kiss. "i love you!" i quickly shouted over the music, while running onto the stage.

Stella
i love you, oh those three damn words that he had just said. it made my heart flutter and my lips curve into an ridiculous smile. he had so much power over my emotions.