Saida Uncontrollably Fond 2

Love or?

*DAHYUN'S POINT OF VIEW*

I was too afraid. I smacked myself. "Why did you say that?" Nayeon asked worriedly. But it was what I really felt. I loved Sana but I think I just got it messed up. I liked Lewis in a different way. I was just stupid and mixed my emotions up. Both of them together in front of me really let me see who I actually liked and who I loved as a family member. Now I'm too afraid to even face Sana but I feel like it's for the best. I really like Lewis as well, something more than a Friend. I don't know when and how that feeling came but it suddenly got to this state. Now I could clearly see I simply liked Sana as a Friend, an older Sister I loved. Everyone sat in the room, no one dared to speak yet again. Momo gave me a worried look and got up to knock on Sana's door. I couldn't take this pressure, I needed to get myself together. "I'll go take a short walk," I said and quietly left the dorm. I walked along the route Sana and I took just now before everything got destroyed. Tears started rolling down from my cheeks. How stupid of me, I should've known sooner. Sana meant too much to me, I couldn't lose her as a Friend. And Lewis, I still like him a lot. Really. I just kept telling myself I was into girls it kind of overlapped who I really was. But now I realised it. More tears started streaming down my cheeks. "Sorry Sana," I whispered repeatedly as I cried. I bent my knees and just cried in the middle of the route. I had to make up with her. I was too afraid to face her so I thought I'd write her a card. I'll talk to her in person when it's time. I ran to buy a pen and got some paper, thankfully I could find those nearby, I was too afraid to go back into the dorm. Not at this timing. I ran to the nearest bench and started writing. I wrote my heart out. I explained it all, hoping she would understand what I was going through really. I folded the paper and continued walking on. I didn't wanna return anytime soon. The thought of the situation made my head hurt.