Saida Uncontrollably Fond 2

The letter

*SANA'S POV*

I never left the room, I had know idea what was going on outside, except that Dahyun left. I swiped through all our photos on my phone. "I'll stop loving her," I would tell myself that I've moved on, but the more I thought about her, our conversations, the dumb things we laughed about together, it's like I fell in love with her all over again. I don't think I'll stop anytime soon. Not with all the joyful memories we shared. I looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes were swelled up. You could clearly tell I had been crying for over an hour. It was impossible to forget it all. Her sweet voice, her laughter. It's as if there were hearts surrounding her everywhere she went. She was always happy and looked to the bright side of things. "If Dahyun got upset, the world would be sad," we always said. I can see how it's all true. I would rather have her not like me anymore than be straight honestly. Because now there's absolutely zero chance. I don't want to force her to love me like I love her either. It's just wrong. I repeatedly consulted myself. "Dahyun!" I heard Chaeyoung exclaim from the living room. She must be back. Then I heard footsteps walking towards my room. Was it Dahyun? My heart started beating quickly again, it reminded me of the crush days, when I was still chasing her. Someone slid a letter under the door, they must've guessed I locked it. I took the letter and opened it immediately.
"To : Sana
From : me of course," she drew a tofu beside it. How can I stop loving her? This is really torture. "Sana, I'm sorry I didn't realise it sooner, I had no idea either. I never got the time to think properly because of our busy schedules and I've never got to properly interact with boys ever since I was a trainee. I was just confused I'm really really sorry. I just kept assuming I liked you as something more than a Friend but I was wrong all along. I don't want to destroy our friendship because I truly really like you. You're like the older Sister I never had, you're my favourite among all the other members. I guess Lewis's confession made me realise how I really felt. I've settled things with Lewis and I promise I won't date him or anything for the time being until you and I are alright and you approve. If you're not okay with it, I won't and I'll completely understand. I'm very sorry Sana. I really didn't mean to hurt you and I feel like if I told you later on, it would hurt even more. I love you," the letter read. Tears rolled down my eyes again this time even more than it did before. Now it was confirmed. It was reality. She is straight.