The Fault in our Stars Alternative

The Moment Everything Changed

My surroundings start spinning. At first I think the cancer got to me and I was getting terribly sick. I look out the window and see the world spinning. I can't think straight and I feel sharp pain on my forehead. This is it, this is where I'm going to die, I think. I look over to Hazel and I see her body moving freely, and that's when I realize that we got into a car accident. I concentrate hard and look in front of me. The window is broken and that's probably why my head hurts. The car is still spinning around and with my left hand I grab Hazel.

"Hazel are you okay?!" I yell but I can tell that's she's passed out.

Suddenly my body lunches forward but the seatbelt holds me tight. Leaves start falling into the car and suddenly the surroundings have stopped spinning. My head is still affected from all the spinning and I try hard to look at Hazel but my eyesight is gone for now. I strain my voice to say something but nothing comes out and I just close my eyes, and wait.

I fall asleep, or at least I think I do, and I have a lovely dream with Hazel. I see her in her beautiful blue dress in front of me, sitting. I look around and we're in the restaurant in Amsterdam. my eyes move up to find her and she's laughing. Suddenly her face starts dripping blood and I move back and run to her. Before I reach her I wake up!

"Augustus! Wake up!" Hazel says lightly while shaking me.

My head is throbbing and I feel the blood pumping with every heart beat.

"What happened?" I say but I remember we crashed.

"Another car hit us. I think the person was drunk." She says

I see she's turning blue and I look at her nose. Her portable Bipap is broken. I see the tube and air is escaping before reaching her. I reach my hand out and pinch the tube closed and it somewhat helps.

"Can we get out?" I say

" I don't know. My door is trapped." she says as she points out the door.

I look and I see a huge tree bark right there blocking her exit and I look out my window. I notice there's nothing and I try opening the door with my right hand. As soon as I try to open the door I scream in pain.

"What's wrong?!" Hazel screams in fear.

I look down and my arm is broken and I start crying. The pain starts feeling more noticeable and I can't help but to release my left hand from the air tube, and hold my right arm. She quickly uses her left arm to hold the tube and uses her right to try and calm me down.

"Do you have your phone" I say with pain

"Yes I do!" she says excitingly. She let's go of me and reaches for her pocket. I look down at her phone and it's completely broke but usable. We dial 911 but they have trouble hearing us but we assume that they'll come for us.

"In case I don't make it" I start

"Don't you dare Gus! It's just a broken arm, you'll live and I'll live." She interrupts.

" I know but -" I start again.

"Augustus stop. We'll live, the cops are on the way. "

I want to tell her about the cancer but this wouldn't be the right moment, would it?

"Can you try to open my door?" I tell her.

She unbuckled her seatbelt and climbs over me and tried to open the door but it won't budge. Maybe it got dented when we were spinning.

"It won't budge. I'll get out through the window and look for help."

"You're crazy! What if something happens to you?"

"Don't worry about me. We need to find help for you." and she climbs out.

I just see her walk away and I feel hopeless because I'm not with her to help, but then again I'm the one that needs help.

It feels like hours and my eyesight goes black, and I start dreaming again.

This time I dream of the first time I laid eyes on her, in support group. When I couldn't stop starring and we had a starring contest, then I got called and I "lost". When I ask her to come over my house to watch a movie. For a moment I'm peaceful and i start hearing sirens. I know this isn't part of the dream but I can't wake up.