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Beer pong and butterflies.

Keanu's p.o.v-
Dam it's been a rough week, after a weekend with Tracey I found myself pining for her, wanting her attention but she doesn't even want to know me. Was I not a good enough kisser, did I not satisfy her?
My mind is filled with all these thoughts , Iv been grumpy all week but at least il be with the bros tonight.
Trent, Brodin, my brother Richard and Tash.
Of course I've known Tash for so long now I just refer to her as one of the bros.
I don't intend on getting too wasted tonight but I know with my brother shoving alcohol down our throats il probably end up around the toilet again. Well I guess it's better than pining over a one night stand.
It's nearly about time to get going to the party, Brodin and Trent are outside having a smoke, Richard is on the phone with a client and Tash is sitting on the bed finishing up with her makeup. Don't get why she puts so much on, she's naturally a very cute girl.
We make our way to the party and on the way I hear Brodin speaking so gently to Tash from the front seat, he speaks to her like she's going to break, it's an exquisite thing to witness.
I turn to look at Tash and I see her staring up at the moon barely listening to Brodins words. I can see in her eyes that she is worried, I am too, Iv seen the way he can treat her when his system is filled with alcohol. My heart goes out to her, but she's so strong for such a small girl. Hey I know for a fact Brodin is in love with her, I guess alcohol just clouds his judgement , no excuse though but that's none of my business.
The party isn't quite big, only a few people here and there, but I see no girl I can get with to get my mind off Tracey so I go straight to the alcohol. I see Tash gripping a cheap bottle of vodka in the corner while speaking to some odd girls. I start walking towards her to take her away from the misery of fake girls when Richard tugs on my arm to watch Brodin and Trent play some beer pong.
I go off with my brother to watch one of the most entertaining games of beer pong Iv ever seen, Trent and Brodin were absolutely destroying some random girls.
From the corner of my eye I see Tash hobbling along towards us, i shift up so that she can only sit next to me. I see many eyes on her and I won't dare let anyone take advantage of her when she is in this state.
She plops up next to me and I feel her thigh touch mine, I twitch but I'm not sure why.
I'm immensely focused on the beer pong game in front of me, mainly because the vodka was beginning to kick in and I could hardly see straight. I feel a weird presence and I turn around and see Tash staring intently at me. She clicks out of it and I immediately ask her if she's okay?
She nods but I can't help but take a moment to look at her
Her eyes so filled with joy, her make up starting to fall leaving little black blotches around her eyes, I so badly want to just wipe it away but I feel as if I might hurt her precious face.
She smiles at me and I feel my legs burn up , and in that instant , for the first time in over a year, I had the greatest urge to wrap my hands around her head and kiss her until we ran out of oxygen.
I snapped out of my trance and immediately felt massive guilt, why do I have these thoughts about her?
Why ?
I'm not even slightly attracted to her ?
Or am I ?
Is it just this cheap alcohol?
I notice that iv been staring at her for far too long so I hop off the wall and demand that me and Tash have the next game of beer pong.