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The morning after.

Tash's p.o.v-
I was awoken by sound of laughter which would usually make anyone happy but I could feel literal daggers being shoved into my head with every giggle. I rolled over to feel for Brodin but all I got was a cold pillow. I slowly sit up and I feel as if my head is going to spin right off. I look around and see Brodin, Trent and Richard sitting on the couch laughing about their ventures last night.
Hearing the words "last night" sends all the memories rushing back and I feel my heart fill with guilt all over again. I throw my hands up to my head and sit there for what feels like an hour just remembering everything that happened the night prior.
"How dumb could you actually be Tash"
My nose is suddenly filled with the smell of coffee and I feel a slight tap on my shoulder, I look up ever so steadily and see Keanu standing there with a big mug of steaming coffee. He has a precious little grin on his face, his eyes so very red and his hair all rufffled up.
I can't help but smile at how good he looks so effortlessly.
I grab the coffee from him and our hands brush ever so slightly and I see him pull away as fast as possible. I feel a pang of pain shoot through my heart.
"I really have hurt this boy.Our friendship will never be the same"
I give him a small but painful grin and he walks away before I can even thank him. I sit there with coffee in my hands, guilt on my mind and heartache throughout my heart. I can feel last nights alcohol slowly rising up from my stomach and I stand up quickly before anything terrible happens.
I walk over to the couch where all the boys have sprawled themselves. They are all sharing their versions of what happened last night and laughing throughout each story. They all notice that Keanu has been oddly quite and turn to him to ask what's  his thoughts of last night.
I feel butterflies fill my stomach thinking of our little secret and I feel myself blushing. I look over at him with teasing eyes and he doesn't even acknowledge my presence. Without hesitation or thought , he turns to the boys and says,
Keanu: I honestly can't even remember last night.
My heart literally drops into my stomach.
"How could he be so cruel, how could he just pretend nothing happened"
I feel everything from last night suddenly make its way up from the night before and I dash to the bathroom.
My body heaves trying to get everything out but unfortunately I can't get him out my system, his words are stuck in my throat and it makes me feel even more ill.
After what feels like hours after being wrapped around the toilet , I pull away and drop onto the ground. I feel the hot stream of tears pouring down my face and I clutch my damp cheeks.
"How could he"