dissociation || p.jm+j.jk || ff

-o 6 o- || swirls & bottles

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"H-hey Jungkook," I mumble while looking back down at my plate. From the corner of my eye, I can see Jungkook sit down across from me. "Aren't you going to sit with your friends?" I ask looking back at the table behind me. 5 boys were sat around one table talking and laughing with each other.

'Nah. Jin's shoulders leave no space for me to sit anyways." Jungkook says shrugging his shoulders. I look back at Jungkook and place a hand over my mouth trying not to laugh. There's a swirl sitting on top of his head made out of his hair. Jungkook stares at me confused.

"Are you okay?" He asks seriously. I lose it and giggle through my palm before mentally facepalming. Jungkook raises his eyebrow. My eyes wrinkle as I smile harder, barely being able to see. I point to his hair. 

"I- It's-" I stutter trying to talk through my chuckles but lean my head back and laugh harder. Jungkook remains confused before the top of his ears turn red. 

"Taehyung.." He growls under his breath. I calm down and look back at Jungkook with a smile. I make eye contact him before opening my mouth to speak.

"Anyways.." I say picking up my fork and playing with my vegetables, "Why are you hanging out with a freak like me when there are better people over there..?" I mumble drifting off my sentence at the end. Jungkook rubs his chin before shrugging.

"If you had no chance of helping me get out of here then I probably wouldn't." He says truthfully. I feel a pang in my chest but ignore it and nod. I set down my fork before reaching out to my cup and hesitating. diet coke.

"Here." I look up at Jungkook to see him holding two water bottles. I take them from him and set them beside my plate. 

"How'd you get water? I thought you aren't allowed to order water at mealtime." I question. He shakes his head before opening his mouth.

"That only applies to you." He says. "Since you have..yeah." He looks down awkwardly and I just nod. 

"Then, how did you get two?" I ask knowing that you're only allowed one drink. He points to his hair and smiles sheepishly at me.

"I told Taehyung he could do whatever he wanted to me in exchange for a water bottle." My cheeks blush a light pink as I smile. 

"Well, thanks but I don't understand how this is going to help me?" I say glancing at the water bottle.

"I- let's say I've had my fair share of things. Remember lunch?" He says turning serious. Lunch? Oh.

"For.." I point to my tray hesitantly. He nods and forces a smile. I nod back before taking off the lid on my main plate. I reach for a chicken strip before picking it up with my fingers. I look at Jungkook who looks back at me expectantly. I take a small bite out of the strip before setting it down on my plate. I look at my fingers and rub them against each other. I can feel the grease on my fingers even after a few seconds on touching it. 

I start to back out but a voice reminds me:

fat < thin

ugly < perfect

slow < fast

I pick up the chicken strip and take a huge bite out of it leaving a small piece left. I close my eyes as I chew the flavourful meat I haven't had in months. I swallow and open my eyes. I look at Jungkook and see him smiling at me. I smile back before popping the small piece left in my mouth.