I try so hard to keep everything under control so I can appear semi normal and so I won't upset anyone. I try so hard to keep everything perfect so bad stuff won't happen. But everything is bad and out of control and it's too much!! I-I need to go back to therapy...I keep losing sleep due to my anxiety again...it hasn't happened for months, not since last year, but after tonight...it feels like all the progress with my anxiety has been lost...I know I've been a lot more stressed for the past week, but still...it's built up, I guess...I should go back to therapy, but I don't think I can handle it. I know I'll just end up lying to get out of there again. And I don't like my therapist too much. I wish I could just handle all my therapy stuff by myself, but I'm a minor and living with my parents so I have no choice. My arms feel heavy and I feel weak...and I'm having a major energy crash...
