I got to bed really early! It was like midnight! And here I thought it was like 2 am. I honestly had no idea.
Okay. Now today is my girlfriend's birthday so gonna spend it talking to her all day, then I'ma go to take my permit test soon, then I have my birthday in August so that's pretty much it. Plus schedule pickup will be at some point. I really hope me and one of my friends has a class together (I already know I'll have chorus with the other one.) I also hope we have lunch together. Lunch alone isn't fun at all...I was too anxious and depressed to bring a lunch so I'd just skip eating lunch every day. I'd sit there and listen to music, go to the bathroom for a signal, watch some downloaded YouTube videos, and at the end of the year I'd just watch downloaded anime. It was especially awful on days when I'd skip breakfast cause I was either late or too depressed to eat. Most of my classes won't have my friends in em, I know that, but I still hope we have at least one class all together or have lunch together. I should stop hoping. That has jinxed me in previous years.
See, I've noticed I have one good year with classes with friends then all my other years are alone while my friends are together or are making new friends cause they can do that and I can't. Apparently, it happened to my older brother too. But it honestly just makes me depressed. I have the inability to make friends with people now. Plus it doesn't help when everyone in your classes are already friends with each other. But whatever. This is a new year. Friends or not, we won't let anything make us too depressed to do our work! We have to keep our grades up this year and go back to being a hard working student! Even if it's fake! I gotta throw away all my bad habits and be a good little person again...I'm scared to do that...that means going back to the way I initially was and that's kinda scary...
But anyway! Time to show my girlfriend her birthday present I made her!!! She will LOVE it!
