Am I suppose to love him

Chapter 24 feelings part 2

Chapter 24 feelings part 2

Shad

I wasn't missing her I was just shocked to see her especially in this element. I mean she was hurt badly maybe I just felt sorry for her but once I walked in the room and she seen me it was like I was her savior and all she wanted me to do was hold her real tight and never let go which is weird because we ended badly. I mean badly I mean like I ripped her heart out her chest and stepped on it and spit on it and fed it to the dogs.

It all started one day she told me she was pregnant I was like oh I don't want no kids so get rid of it and walked out of her life forever. A long story short about two months later I heard through the grapevine that she had a miscarriage I was probably somewhere not thinking about her with some bitch giving me head or something stupid. I guess I regret that decision but I probably wouldn't be a successful person that I am now and I wouldn't have Shai she's my everything but maybe I do miss what we had or what we should of had.

Arianna

I woke up alone and just sat in the bed thinking about the dream I just had. I was at the park sitting on a blanket with a picnic basket by myself. Then I see shad coming and he sits down and we eat and it was all perfect then I woke up. I just sat on the bed thinking what if but then what about chris maybe I should break up with him. I don't want a lead him on but I don't know.

He came into the room and sat on the bed. " get up lets go somewhere" he said. " where"I asked him. " no questions just get dress" he said. " okay fine me some clothes then" I said and he pointed to the box of clothes that was on the floor. " oh' I said and got up and went to the box and pulled out a pink sweater and black pants and put on some sneakers and we left.We got in his car and he drove to some place. It seemed like forever and we finally stopped and we were at this building and we went inside and went up some stairs then through another door. Chris flicked a switch and the lights came on and we sat down in some chairs in front of a round table.

We sat down in the chairs and a projector came down and the lights turned off. Then a movie started it was the wiz. That was my movie I was so into it I was singing along with it it was great I loved it. The movie went and chris turned to me and said " I really want to trust you and love you but it starting feel like were built to fail and I can't do this if we don't put our all into this relationship with us can you promise that you won't break my heart if you decide that you don't want be in this relationship any more . I took his hand and looked in his eyes and said " I promise I won't hurt you there's no one like you in my life that has been this special to your my everything and I hope that we one will be one with each other.