Am I suppose to love him

Chapter 39- Forgotten

Chapter 39- Forgotten
Arianna

I was looking at this guy and he looked so hurt when I said I don’t remember him it’s crazy because he seems so familiar like I seen him before but I don’t know where it’s strange . I look at him and it’s like we were something before but I’m lost Amy it’s just the medicine I’m on it maybe I’ll remember then this sucks. I didnt even remember my name or who I was. You know what makes it worst is that I just lost my mom and I don’t even remember it’s like my brain went on vacation. I guess I better leave him alone and I wheeled myself out of here. The nurse seem me coming out the room and that’s when she came to help me and take me back to my room. When I went back to my room there were Megan, Angelica and my aunts and uncles all in the room with me sitting there looking sad and not over the fact my mom is gone and what happen to me. I apparently I been gone for two weeks and my mom’s funeral was tomorrow and I’m being discharged tomorrow. Megan spoke and said ” how was it talking to Chris?” ” it was bad he looked hurt just like you guys did when I asked who you were I feel so bad that I can’t remember nothing ugh I said as the nurse helped me back into bed. The next day I was out the hospital and going to my mom’s funeral I was right next to the front row reading the obituary seeing if it would strike my brain but there was nothing. As I was listening to people talk about her I started getting a few memories of her but they were weird because I could see a woman, boy and a younger me but I don’t know who they were. There were a bunch of pictures of faces but I didn’t know there names. There were a bunch of pictures and I realized I was next to my brother who was only 14 and his name was Jeremiah that’s why he was holding my hand really tight trying not to cry. The funeral was over and we were leaving and going to the graveyard and I seen Chris all the way in the back in an wheelchair and I looked at him he looked at me and it’s like time froze but no memories came back of him. I been I wanted something to come back it was like an electric shock every time I seen him. We arrived at the graveyard and we buried my mom and a few more memories came back and I remembered her and I was glad that I was paralyzed because if I wasn’t I would have probably been trying to go in the ground with her and they lowered her to the ground but I couldn’t so this was the most painful thing I had to watch I can’t believe she’s gone this was unbelieveable I can’t take all this pain I feel inside it’s terrible. How do I go on I need her in my life. Three weeks later I was in my apartment just laying on my bed watching tv. When I was flipping channels on I stopped on MTV and I seen Chris brown’s video she ain’t you is on. Then after the video mtv new came on and said r&b singer Chris brown is currently out the hospital after being in an fatal car accident with girlfriend Arianna And they both are doing fine. Then it went to commercial. This crazy this time I was dating Chris brown and I can’t remember none of it this crazy he has been my favorite singer and dancer forever and I can’t remember him at all ain’t this some shit. Just then the doorbell rang and I went to open it and it was Chris brown at my door. OMG