1945 (Yuzuru Hanyu x reader)

I Love You

Your POV (time skip to after the Japanese surrender and Indonesia is finally free)

18th of August 1945, the day after Indonesia stated their independence day. There was a party in the town to celebrate Indonesia finally being free. I had just finished getting ready and went to check myself in the mirror. I then saw the necklace around my neck, the necklace that Yuzu gave me before he left.

Even though it has only been a few days since I left but it feels like I haven't seen Yuzu in months. I still haven't forgiven him for what he has done but I have to admit that I miss him. No, I can't think about him at this moment. He probably already went back to Japan

Just when I was about to head out of my room, I saw a letter on the table, next to my bed. The letter has my name on the front so I decided to open it and read it before I went to the party. In the letter:

While you read the letter, play the song for extra feels ;)

My Dearest (Y/N),

I firstly wanted to say, I'm sorry. I should've been honest with you from the start. I know it seems a bit late for an explanation but better late than never, right? First, I've been the general's right hand in command way before I met you. I was supposed to be the next general after this war but I decided not to. My reason, it's because of you, (Y/N).

When I met you, I was in a dilemma whether or not I should become the next general but then, you came into my life. I don't know why but being around you makes me relax, forget about my duties as the right hand in command, and in general, being with you makes me happy.

After going out with you, talking with you, having dinner together, walking you home every single night, I finally realised what I want in life. And that's to be with you for the rest of my life. I then told the general and higher ups that I didn't want to become the next general but I want to live a normal life.

The general and higher ups grant my wish but first, I have to help invade Indonesia. Once everything that needs to be done in Indonesia is over I then can resign my duty as the next general.

That night when I told you that I was leaving, was probably one of the hardest thing I've ever done. To be honest, I was scared. I wasn't scared of telling you and how you'll react but instead I was scared that I might not see you in a very long time like maybe 10 years and that you probably moved on and have a family already. That's why I gave you my necklace, so that it reminds you of me and that you'll wait for me.

3 years has passed and you're still in my mind. Everyday. From the moment I wake up till the moment I was about to go to sleep. I felt that it's been too long since I saw you and that I was about to ask the general if there's anything I could do back in Japan. I wanted to see you so badly but the general said that there was nothing that needs to be done back in Japan.

One day, the soldiers became very hectic. I asked them what's going on and they told me that Nagasaki and Hiroshima was bombed. I immediately felt my heart stopped beating for a while. My thoughts were immediately directed towards you.

My thoughts were on about where are you? Are you alright? Are you alive? I couldn't stop thinking about you but then I was called to see the general. The last thing I expected, happened when I went to see the general.

You were right in front of me. My thought was like, "What the hell is she doing here?!" Don't get me wrong, I was glad to see that you were alive but I was also confused on why you were there. Btw, I'm very sorry that I slammed you to the table back then.

Not only that, but, I'm truly sorry for everything that has happened here. I'm sorry that you had to find out like this. I'm so very sorry for killing your entire family. I'm so sorry for being a bit ruff with you. I'm so sorry for shouting at you.

When you left, I had just realised what I had done. I immediately broke down, I shouldn't have shouted at you. Because you were right, I was jealous. I was jealous at Shoma. I was jealous when he saved you, when he carried you, when he pinned you to the ground, and especially when he kissed your forehead.

But now, I guess it's too late for sorry. But I really am sorry (Y/N). I don't expect any apologies from you because this is the consequences I have to face. One more thing, I'm very sorry that my country invaded yours. I'm glad that your country is finally free now. I hope that you can live a normal life now.

My only regret, is not telling you that I love you. From the moment you said that you want to change the world. I knew that I fell for you. I believe that you will be able to change this cruel world into a more peaceful world. I just wish that I get to see you one last time and tell you that I love you face to face before I leave. But I don't think that that will happen.

Anyways, I wish you nothing more than happiness. I really hope that you'll be able to forgive me over time. I also hope that you'll be able to find true happiness like I did when I met you. Goodbye (Y/N).

With Love,

Yuzuru Hanyu

When I read the letter, I couldn't help but crying. Without thinking twice, I put the letter in my bag and rushed out the door. Not caring about the people that were calling me. I ran towards the forest, back to where the Japanese base were.

I kept on running deeper into the forest. "Please still be here, please. Just let me see him, one more time. I need to tell him...I need to tell him that I love him too" I thought to myself

When I reached the base, I saw that there were no tents, nothing. Everything and everyone is gone. "Yuzu!! Are you here?! Please...There's something I need to tell you!!" I shouted

But there was no answer. I searched everywhere near the base but there was no sign of any Japanese soldier. Just when I was about to breakdown and cry, I heard some rustling near the bushes behind me

"Hello?? Is someone there? Yuzu??" I asked while walking towards the bushes

"Not exactly..." says a familiar voice

Cliffhanger, hehehe :) What do you think about this chapter? I hope that this chapter really hit the feels. I remember when  I wrote this chapter and re-read it, I got a bit tear up. Anyways, hope you like this chapter , sorry for the cliffhanger. See you in the next chapter :)