Holes in My Mind

I Am Not Alone

Headphones in, world off. The sound of music begins to fill my ears. The louder the music, the further the world seems to be. This is my escape, from all the terrors and the dreadfulness that appear every corner. The fears once released from Pandora's box have overthrown the tiny bit of hope left. The soft tune of a piano relaxes me, allowing me to close my eyes. My surroundings have disappeared and all there is left are my thoughts. My mind was once filled with hopes and dreams. Now, it is filled with anxiety, the feeling of which holds me back. The soft tune of the piano continues to play as thoughts come in and out of my mind. The softness reminds me of my mother, who loving arms once protected me from all horribleness of this world. I begin to feel as if I cannot breathe, the thoughts are drowning me, until a voice fills my ears. The artist's words describe the frustration and grief I feel in my soul. I begin to feel relief for the first time in a long time. I continue to listen. As the beat begins to speed up now with guitars and drums, the pain begins to feel numb. Hot tears begin to fall down my face, the artist continues. His words fill my mind and enter into my thoughts, reminding me that, I am not the only one. The thought echoes through my head; I am not alone, I am not alone. This continues to play over and over again, tears still falling. Moments later, the song finishes. I am back into the world that beat me down and dragged me to my knees. I wiped my once tear filled eyes and for the first time in a very long time, the sun seemed to shine brighter. I could now hear the sound of birds and the voices of people. A child passes me, giving me a soft smile. I return the smile, as the thought that saved me filled my head, "I am not alone, I am not alone".