Against All Odds

Chapter 20 - Brittany's Funeral

It was 7:14 a.m. The funeral started in 46 minutes and I was still sitting in Quinn's house not dressed, and not ready to leave. She came out of the bathroom after finishing her hair and saw me sitting on her bed.

"Santana. We have to leave soon. You don't want to be late."

"I don't even want to be there, Quinn. It's Brittany's funeral. Her fucking funeral and I can't do this." I started to cry. She sat next to me.

"I'll be there for you. Emily told me that she boarded her plane about thirty minutes ago so she'll be here soon too. So please, let's just get you ready and we'll take it slow when we get there okay?"

I got up and started to change. Memories were just flowing through me and I tried my hardest to keep my tears in.

We got there on time and I searched the crowd of people to see if Emily had reached but she wasn't here yet. I went inside of the church and there were tons of people. It wasn't surprising, since she was just an amazing person. Brittany's mom had her cremated so there was a nice little memorial for her in the front. A bunch of flowers next to her picture and her favorite sweater right in front of the frame. Quinn had her arm around me tight as we walked down the isle to sit with the Glee club near the front of the congregation.

I kept looking towards the entrance of the church to see if Emily was coming in but nothing. I checked my phone as I put it on silent and there was nothing from her. The service started and it was very moving. Her mom went up and said a few words about her. She had a hard time and I felt terrible. A mother had just lost her only daughter. Only child for that matter. I started to cry.

"And with that said, I would like to invite the Glee Club up here to perform a song." Everyone got up from the pew we were sitting on and went up to the front.

"Good morning everyone. While we were in high school, we were all in the Glee Club together. Brittany was my best friend. I loved her with all my heart. This song is for you, Britt. I love you."

The music starts and I see that Emily had just walked into the chapel. She smiles at me. I realized then that this would be the first time that she would be hearing me sing anything. I never bragged about my hidden talent, even though she begged me all the time for just one song. She took a seat at one of the back pews as I started to sing.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering

How it could be now or might have been

Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Little did any of us know that there was going to be a slideshow playing. Quinn moved closer to me recognizing that this would be a hard for me. It started with baby pictures. Brittany's mom took a lot, being that she was her pride and joy.

I've never had a dream come true

Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on

You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You're the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where life takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory

I've lost all sense of time

and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind