Im nobody. Who are you? Are you nobody to?

I will be

I decided to go to the studio to get some work done I want to try and write a song that kinda told how I felt and how I wanted to be able to feel. I took a seat in my chair and took out my notepad.

After awhile of thinking I decided that the song was going to be called I WILL BE.

(Ps not my song)

There's nothing I could say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me.

All the pain,the tears I cried and still you never

Said goodbye and Now I know how far you'd go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now

This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want and gather myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart all my life I'll be with you forever to get you though the day and make everything ok

I thought that I had everything I didn't know what life could bring but now I see, honestly you're the one thing I got right the only one I let inside now I can't breathe cause your here with me

And if I let you down I'll turn it all around cause I will never let you go

Cause without you I can't breathe I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave you're all I've got you're all I want

And without you I don't know what I'd do I can never live a day without you here with me do you see you're all I need

And that was what I was feeling at this very moment I felt like I needed Justin and at the same time I felt like I wanted to kill him for braking my heart I want him and I need him but I don't know if I could go back to someone who clearly doesn't love me. I want to believe that in the time we have been apart that he has changed but I just don't know

I was just sitting here by myself when their was a knock at the door I got up out if my chair to see who it was I opened the door to see scooter standing their

Scooter: hey Alex I need to talk to you about some stuff.

Alex: ok come in I was just working on my new music for the album.

Scooter: ok well first thing what the hell is going on between you an justin I mean he won't answer his phone he refuses to go anywhere he says he isn't going to go on tour unless you talk to him he showed me the letter Alex I have never seen him so scared and afraid. he's scared because he thinks you hate him and don't love him anymore

Alex: RIGHT HE'S SCARED WELL HE WASNT SCARED WHEN HE WANTED TO SLEEP WITH HIS FUCKING EX WHEN HIS FUCKING GIRLFRIEND IS PREGNANT AT HOME ALWAY BY HERSELF HE HONESTLY SHOULD HAVE FUCKING THOUGHT OF THAT

I just start to cry I don't know what else to do I mean I love him god knows I do but I went back to him once and look where that got me

Scooter: Alex I didn't know you were pregnant and second is I know he still loves you and I also know what he did was fucked up on so many levels but please for the sake of his sanity and his fans please just go talk to him get him in a better place please

I thought about it and I think he at least gets to tell me why he did what he did and why he couldn't just tell me he wanted to be with selena instead of me it honestly could have saved as both some heartbreak

Alex: ok scooter I will go and talk to him don't but I don't know how that going to make me or me any less sad then we both are.

Scooter: ok thanks Alex. You he really has changed a lot sense you two met and I don't want him to go back to the way he was before I think he is finally truly happy with his life and we all can't thank you enough for what you have done for him

Alex: I miss him I do but I also want to stand my ground to let him know what he did really really hurt me I love him I do I want him more then I want anything else in this crazy world.

Scooter: I know you do I can see it every time you talk about him or even when you say he name it shows.

Alex: scooter...... Im so scared that my baby is going to grow up without a daddy because I wanted to be selfish I want him or her to have both parents

Scooter: don't worry it will because you and Justin love each other but your both to blind to see that you to were meant to be together just talk to him see how everything plays out ok give it a try it won't hurt right?

Alex: I guess you're right scooter thanks for your advice on everything you are the best manger ever and thank you for listening to me your the only person beside Justin who listens to me talk it's just nice to know I can talk about anything with you

Scooter: your welcome now get back to work I want to hear those songs the next time I see you ok

Alex: deal

With thy he left the studio I just stayed their an work I spend the night because I wanted to work on more music

I sat here by myself and realize their was only one person I want right now so he could tell me everything was going I be alright but I no longer had him because I was stupid and let him go