Im nobody. Who are you? Are you nobody to?

I love him not you!!!!

I was in my hotel room just sitting there when I heard a knock at the door I thought for a second. Who could that be?

I decided to answer it.

I opened the door surprised to see it was Justin's best friend Ryan I wondered how he knows I'm here

Alex: Ryan what are you doing here? An how do you know I'm in hotel?

Ryan: first thing I have to tell you something second I ask scooter if he knew where you were.

Alex: oh ok come inside an lets talk.

Ryan: thanks ok first i wanted to tell you that I'm in love with you and that I have been the sense first time I laid eyes on you.

He started to touch my leg and I moved away because I still loved Justin

Alex: I'm sorry I just don't feel the same way I'm in love with your best friend Ryan and despite the fact he cheated on me I'm not going stoop to his level I'm a better person then that I don't want to hurt him the same way he hurt me. I can't watch him be broken like he watch me be broken

Ryan: I don't think you understand I just can't let you go.

I started to get really scared he pushed me on to the bed and started to undress me I tried to get him off but he was to strong I just kept screaming I needed Justin but like always he wasn't there I eventually gave up and just laid there. When he was done he just left. All I thought about was Justin and if I Called him would he come running to my rescue.

What am i gonna do I just can't lay here I decided to call Justin because the truth was if I was going to get though this I would need my best friend an as much as hated to admit Justin was my only friend

( the call to Justin )

Ring ring ring

Justin: hello........ Hello Alex I know it's you stop playing and just say what you have to say

Alex:........ Justin I'm sorry I left you the truth is I need you right now I was .....

Justin: you were what Alex spit it out..

Alex: I was just raped and I don't know who else to talk to about it I know I probably ruined everything between us and I know you probably hate me for what happened but I can't get though this with out you Justin please just.....

Justin: just what....

Alex: just come hold me please Justin

Justin: Alex I'm so sorry baby it's all my fault if I hadn't did what I did you would be safe in my arms but I was scared and was Irresponsible and I'm truly sorry for what I've done to you I'm on my way to come see you ok I love you and I'm sorry I messed up

Alex: I needed you.

Then I hung up because I realize how dumb I really am I wasn't what Justin needed but I can't stay away from him

I thought for a second I should move on like he did I was interrupted from my thoughts as my doorbell started to ring I walk over and opened the door

He was here and for the first time I want to hurt him like he hurt me by I knew that would Just make feel worse than I already do I loved him and I still do

He walk right in and sat on the couch and then just stared at me for what seemed to be hours

He started to talk.

Justin: I came here to tell you that I really thought about the last thing you said to me before you hung up and it was you needed me and I for some stupid ass reasons thought only way I could stop myself from falling more and more and more in love with you was to sleep with someone else but it didn't help because you saw with your own eyes and when I looked at you and saw how hurt and broken I had made you. It Just broke my heart in to pieces I made her leave right after I told her that I was just to selfish to see what I had and by the time that I did you had already left me with that note and for days I couldn't eat I couldn't sleep I realized you are everything to me and I fucking hate what I did to us but baby I can't live without you..

He was is tears how I never wanted to make him cry I just wanted him to see what he did to us was wrong once he had calmed down a little he kept talking

Justin: when you called me for the first time in months I was happy for the first time In a long time but when you told that you had been raped I lost my mind because it my fault because I didn't protect you like a boyfriend is supposed to I said I would but I lied and I'm so fucking sorry

Alex: Justin baby calm down ok I know your sorry ok I was scared to of how fast we were falling for each other but I wanted to fall for you. You know everything there is to know about me I want you all of you an if I can't have that then I don't think we should see each other anymore

Justin: baby you have me all of me and I do want you all of you

He slowly walks over to me and places one of his hands on my face then I feel his soft lips on mine an I forget everything. i can't live without him either an it took this huge fight to see what we both want was always in front of our faces