"If You're Wondering If I Want You To"

Chapter 3 "Be Yourself"

Take self breast to meet Elle, I would be waiting for me in the square downtown. I'm not sure why, but every second that passed made more and more pressed the accelerator, I knew I would not do anything stupid, but I also knew that he had never before heard mourn as well. Something was going on and it sure would be something serious. Come and try to spot her with his eyes, but it was impossible, it was Thursday and all took the opportunity to go to fairs and musical events were made. I walked all over the place, could not find it. - Why you have cell Aidan? - I thought, remembering when I put my hands in my pockets.

While sounded, like a movie scene I saw sitting a few meters with his favorite white cap and moving his feet in the snow.

Hello ... - I sat next to him.

-Hello... - he said without looking up thanks for coming, I know you're busy with your stuff

Elle- I interrupted. You know I'll always be for you, but this busy, when you need me not estaré-. She just looked at me silently, her eyes were swollen and red, had cried a lot. - What happens?

-I do not know...

I furrowed my brow in confusion Do not you know?

- Sorry, I should not have called- tried to leave, but I retained.

- No, wait, quiet .. tell me why you cry?

- I do not know how to explain it, I feel embarrassed, I just want you to hold me 'I took her hand please.

as loud as I could hugged her.

Elle not only want to hold, I want to help so I need you to tell me what happens; And we will not have to be ashamed with me, no trust, we know a lot, "Rojito"- I smiled at the end.

Aidan ... you always make me laugh - a small smile was drawing on his face. - I'll tell you, I know you thought I exaggerate, but how I feel, do not be angry, and let me finish, because I never let you finish talking, always interrupt me. And if he was right, always she interrupted.

-I feel useless -He said enfadándose- lie all the time, when I say that everything is fine in fact everything is wrong ... I feel guilty for doing it all wrong. I was'm a bad daughter, yesterday my mom asked me to go for my sister to school and did not arrive on time, I could not go as I promised, I am a bad sister, I'll never competencies Camila, I'm never there for her .... - crying not let her finish, and deep down inside of me did not want it to end, I was distressed to see her like, just turned to embrace her and try to calm her down telling her that everything would be fine.

- I do not know what I'm doing. Everyoneexpects something from me, everyone expects you to be perfect, my parents, mybrothers, my friends, my teachers, farmers. The perfect daughter, the perfectsister, friend, student, actress and I do not know what to do, do not want tofail, I want to do well.

Elle, perfection does not exist, it isrelative, which is perfect for me it is not for you and so with all, can notmeet the expectations of others, be patient with yourself, do not pressurebecause all do is hurt. Failing to go Camila does not define you as a sister,you know. Do not feel bad about the things that you do or do not you think, yousee better if you do and you can do for them, for everyone.

- Aidan, you know what the pressure if Ido not meet expectations I go, if you fail no good, you know it's so. Butyou may be right about things I can do.

Unfortunately Elle was right, it's hard being a teenager and being in thisindustry. If no one forces us to be in and do what we like, but behind all thatis there is more, much more.

I do not want you to think that I'm complaining because it's not, I love what Ido, but before it was quieter, now all are press conferences, photo shoots,interviews Whatever suffer most are interviews! I know I never say.

- Say what you think, what you feel

'And if you do not like?

- Look, if there's anything I learned from Jade is no more important thing tobe yourself, to tell the world what you think, what you think is right. We willalways be afraid, but the trick is to learn to live with it, to know it isthere but we can not let it overcome us. You are the master of your decisions,no one else, not fear you feel, but you.

- Owww all that I teach Jade? I askas tears he wiped his face.

-Yes. she is very special, and alwayswhen I need it, just like you - I smiled

- Like you - he said handing me backthe gesture.