RETURN || SCOTT MCCALL [1]

||5.08.3||

"WE CANT DO THIS."

His eyes, which were still shut from my abrupt pull away from the kiss, snapped open to reveal brown eyes swimming with hurt.

"Ind-" he begins in that stupid pleading tone, and my impatience and irritation rises.

"Don't!" I snap. "Don't say 'Indi' in that damn voice, and blabber on about how much you love me, because despite your steady heart rate, we both know it's not true!"

Scott was perplexed, trying to bring a hand on my arm for comfort, but I was quick to snatch it away. "I do love you! And my heart rate doesn't change because it's the truth!"

"You just broke things off with Kira five minutes ago. Five minutes ago you ended a relationship with the girl you chose over me. The girl you want more than you want me, and if you think you 'love' me, then you must have some pretty damn strong feelings for her, and there's no way you can stand here and tell me you love me like she never existed!" My voice was a shout, but thick with emotions, faltering at points.

Scott had tears welling in those hurt puppy eyes, and I shook my head, refusing to let that get to me. "Ind-"

"Don't." I laugh mirthlessly. "Not that name, not that tone."

His mouth opens and closes without a sound, faltering and fumbling for words, and I move to leave, move to go check on my brother who was just kidnapped for Christs sake, because here I am, watching Scott McCall gape like a fish when I should be with him. I haven't even checked him for injuries yet, and what is wrong with me? How did Scott McCall suddenly come before my little brother?

Scott's hand grabs mine, preventing me from leaving, and I suppress a sob as the warmth that is Scott McCall radiates through our entwined fingers into me, and why is it like this? Why does he still have this effect on me?

After he was hopelessly infatuated with my best friend for years, and even a little while we were dating?

After I left him for months, heartbroken without a word?

After our bond was forcefully broken?

After he broke my heart and chose the other girl?

After we ended up kissing despite our current relationships, convincing me to break things off with Theo only fir him to stay with Kira?

After he practically destroyed me during that fight after everything that happened with my family?

After everything, why does Scott McCall still make me love him?

"Ind-"

"Don't."

And I pulled my hand away, entering the house without looking back. Without looking back on his drenched, destroyed form.