NOSE BLEED //:A BTS fan fiction

Broken

I stand up and walk away, I can't risk taking my anger out on them or even in front of them

This is something I have to deal with myself or it will make me more angry

I look over my shoulder to see Jackson stopping anyone from following me

He's the only one who has seen me at my worst, so he understands I just need a little time to pull myself together, if I can't calm down it will put everyone in danger

I take a few deep breaths and begin to calm down

Just remember that you have people to look after, you can't do that if you can't break, not now

If I loose it.... I'm scared I won't make it back

I punch a car window without thinking about it

The shattered glass falls onto the floor and seat, I look to my hand to see blood flowing down my arm

I look to see everyone staring at me, a little scared

I made them scared of me

What the hell is wrong with me?

I close my eyes and take in a deep breath, I turn back around and walk towards the front

I manage to move a few cars by myself until yoongi comes to join me

"what happened back there?" he asks softly while sitting on the bonnet of the car

"I just lost my temper, don't worry about it" I shrug a little and his facial expression softens

He does a half nod

"if you need someone to talk to, we are here, even if you don't know us well, we have to stick together" he jumps down and walks past me

He stops, like he's about to say something, he just shakes his head a little and Carry's on

I wonder what he was about to say

I just shrug and carry on with what I was doing

After a few hours, the road is now clear, it's starting to go dark

I don't want to be out here for any longer than we have to

I join everyone in the camper, they were laughing until I appeared

They begin to stare at my hand, I look down to see that blood is still dripping from my cuts

"fuck" I sigh quietly

"here, Ill clean it for you" Jin says as he pulls me to the table

I sit down and he searches the cabinets for a first aid kit

He sits down opposite me and Jackson sits next to me

I give him a small smile and put my hand down on the table, Jin carefully holds it up and examines it

He looks good while he's concentrating

My stomach flutters a little and my face turns a little red

"they're not deep, the blood makes it look a lot worse than it is" he says softly

I just nod and look out the window

"I thought you learned how to control it" Jackson whispers to me

I can feel his breath on my neck, causing me to have goosebumps and butterflies

Why am I like this?

"I did, this was nothing compared to my other episodes" i whisper back and turn my head