my CupCake

Chapter 22- my heart

"No don't touch me!" I screamed at my dad and kicked him on the balls and ran away. Soon he were chasing me.

"Run away Niall, RUN!" I screamed as I saw Niall in a door opening.

"RUN!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. I turned around to see my dad approaching me from the back.

"Run Niall" I cried when I saw that he stood still. When I came closer I saw his eyes staring infront of him... he were dead. I fell to the floor and started crying. Soon my dad stood next to me.

"Why did you run away?" he asked and lifted me up and cut me. I screamed but then he fell to my side and Niall stood there.

"I love you" he said and reached for my hand but when we touched he dissapeared and there stood dad. He pushed me down a roof and in my head echoed "I won't let you fall"...

"Kat, Kat, KAT FOR FUCKS SAKE WAKE UP!" someone screamed.

"A dream" I whispered exhausted and dripping of sweet. Infront of me stood all of the boys.

"NIALL!" I screamed and attacked him with a hug and many kisses.

"Calm down Kat" he said and looked at me seriously.

"What did you dream of?" Liam asked.

"My dad and... and Niall" I said.

"We knew the Niall part" Louis said.

"What?" I said and swollowed.

"Yeah you screamed like 'Run Niall, run" Zayn said and I hid my blushing face in Nialls chest.

"Your dad?" Niall asked I nodded and Niall looked at Liam who nodded.

"Let's leave boys" he said and left me and Niall alone.

"What happened?" Niall asked.

"He were chasing me and you didnt move then, then you were dead and I fell" I said and sighed crying quietly.

"Then he cut me and I fell from a house... it was so realistic" I added to the end.

"I'm sorry it was dumb of me to bring it up last night" he said and kissed my head.

"But you need to know what a freak your girlfriend is" I muttered and a long silence interrupted. oh holy fuck I did not just call me his girlfriend.

"You are not a freak" he said after a while.

"Really? Have you seen me? My scars, my past?! Have you even met me?!" I screamed at him with tears in my eyes.

"YOU JUST SHUT UP! YOU ARE THE MOST PERFECT GIRL IN THE WORLD AND YOU CAN'T HELP WHAT THOSE JACKASSES HAVE DONE TO YOU SO JUST SHUT UP!" He screamed at me raising from the bed and pulling his hair.

"But look at me" I cried and stood up next to him. He took my shoulders and shaked me.

"You. Are. Perfect" I said.

"I'm not" I muttered.

"WHY?! BECAUSE YOUR DAD WAS SOME KINDA RAPIST AND PEOPLE HURT YOU?" he screamed.

"No because, because I let him kill my mum, I let him beat her up everyday, I didn't stop the guys from raping the girls on the streets" I said and pushed him away and ran out of his room towards the exit.

"Kat wait!" he yelled after me.

"No!" I yelled and opened the door that led out of their appartment. I stumbled towards the elevator as I fell crying to the floor. I heard a door burst open and soon Niall sat next to me and held me tightly in his arms.

"Whatever they did, you couldn't stop them! They would just kill you or rape you. You couldn't help those poor people" he said.

"Niall I know but, I, I could have called for help, something, I could have reported to the cops!" I yelled and freed myself from his grip and ran to the elevator. I could her him swearing and pulling his hair. I watched the elevator doors slowly close.

"FOR GODS SAKE KAT I LOVE YOU!" he screamed. Wait Niall loves me? I stuck my foot between the doors and they opened again.

"I'm so sorry Niall" I cried and jumped into his arms.

"I'm sorry too" he said.

"Well Iove you too" I said and hugged him.

"I just don't see why you love me" I mumbled.

"You can't be serious" he muttered.

"You are the most amazing, beautiful person I have ever met and I don't know I could marry you or something. You. Are. My. Life" he said and kissed me.

"Wait marry me?" I asked interrupting the kiss.

"Holy fuck" Niall said punching the wall.

"I screwed up I didn't mean it, I mean we just met, we don't know each other, we haven't even confirmed any relationship, we just, we" he sighed. I felt me tears watering up. He looked at me and I walked towards their door.

"We just met but are in love, I TOLD YOU ABOUT THE PART OF MY LIFE THAT I TOLD NO ONE, NO ONE ABOUT and for gods sake it's impossible to think that we aren't together when you see us Niall" I said crying.

"We are too young" he mumbled.

"I know and, I'm not looking for marriage actually" I mumbled. Oh shit a guy that won't have sex until they are married are obviously into the thought. EXPLAIN YOURSELF WOMAN! I screamed in my head and gave me a mental slap.

"uhm I'm, its not that I don't like marriage but my mum and dad we-" I started.

"I will NEVER turn into your dad" Niall said grabbing my wrist.

"I know, I just, I just don't wanna scare you of!" I admitted a bit too loudly.

"Nothing you do can scare me off. I have said that I can't live with out my heart. So I just can't live without you" he said and hugged me tightly.