Girl meets world: im only Human.

"no guy ever likes me."

the next day, I again got to school on time so i didnt stay afterschool... If you know What I mean.

Me And riley we'rent speaking we didnt when look at each other and I was alone at lunch and at PE.

Afterschool, I was at my locker, when Lucas came up.

"oh, hey maya." he greeted putting in his locker combination.

"hi."

"hey, I noticed you and Riley werent speaking today. How come?"

"uh... stuff." I answered not sure What to say. "hey, quick question: If you had to choose between me and Riley, who would you choose?"

Lucas let out a small chuckle. "oh, THATS What the fight is about..."

"What?"

"you and Riley are fighting over me."

"I wouldnt exactly say we're FIGHTING... but... so If you had to choose, who would you?"

"Riley." he answered with no hesitation. "I actually kinda have a crush on her. DONT tell her though."

"really?"

"Yeah, Sorry maya."

"What? no, im over you." I lied.

"OVER me? so your saying you liked me, huh?" he teased.

I chuckled a bit feeling myself blush and I couldnt find anything to say. "uh..."

"ok, Well... I gotta go. see you maya." he said shutting his locker and walked away.

"bye."

I shouldve known. No guy ever likes me. Like I said earleir "What guy would like a smelly nobody who looks like a hobo?

Plus i shouldve known it was Lucas and Riley with the chemestry. I dont think ill ever find anyone.

I headed home feeling my stomach groaning.

did I eat lunch?

As i was walking I passed by the laundrymat wondering If I could work any, but they were closed.

I then began making my way home when I heard a voice behind me.

"maya!" it called. I turned and saw farkle sitting on the corner of a building leaning against a Wall.

"Farkle?" I greeted walking over. "what are you doing here?"

"eh, I don't know. just relaxing I guess" he answered. "How have you been?"

"um... ive been better. Me and riley arent exactly friends any more" and Its all my fault.

He gave me a look of understanding and patted the ground next to him. "sit."

"uh..."

I carefully sat next to him even though I felt uncomfortable. after what mr. matthews did to me, I dont think ill ever see guys the same again.

"what happened?" he questioned.

"what?"

"with you and riley"

"oh... well I told her I like lucas and she got mad that I kept it a secret from her and says best friends dont keep secrets from each other."

"but... this is riley. She wouldnt end your friendship just because of that." he pointed out.

"yeah well... shes also mad that I dont tell her things like where I go after school"

"Well... where do you go?' he asked.

"uh..."

"nah, Its ok. I understand. everyone has theyre secrets." he said making me let out some air feeling releived. "wait a second,  you like lucas?"

"sort of. I dont think I do anymore. he told me he likes riley. I cant beleive our friendship ended over something that stupid, it isnt worth me and rileys friendship... I shouldve known. No guy ever likes me."

"Really? but... look at you. how can guys not notice you?"

"yeah, I know, I smell to high heaven." I retorted.

"well.... yes, but thats probrably not your fault. Your still... Beautiful."

My jaw almost dropped. I couldnt believe what I was hearing.

beautiful?! i thought as i felt my cheeks suddenly get warm.

"so are you doing the talent show?" he asked awkwardly trying to change the subject.

"why would I?"

"because, you and riley did it every year. singing and dancing. But... if you dont want to because now we're in middle school then..." he let out a sigh. "I just kinda feel like people shouldnt give up traditions like that.  I mean, even if your not performing with riley,  you should still do it. plus your not that bad of a singer."

"really?"

"yeah, I always felt you were the star of your little duets."

I smiled at him but looked away after an image flashed in my mind. "is something bothering you?"

"huh?... oh um, kinda. Lifes not that easy."

He looked at me with consern for a moment. "ok, well... whatever it is, I believe that something good will come out of it."

what good could come out of my teacher raping me? of me and my best friend never speaking again?

"you have a good heart. the way I see the world is we're all just a bunch of souls gathered on earth. We just live in a dark place where we get judged by how we look or how much money we have. we all suffer in this world. some lives have more heartache than others. None of us are perfect we are all just lost souls struggling to make it this place, we're all... at the mercy of the seas."

I looked at him. he was so deep.

"Just...keep being a good machine."

Just then those images flashed in front of me.

"be a good machine."

All of a sudden I felt nauseas. "I have to go." I said as I quickly got up and ran.

so yeah, basically maya has PTSD kinda from the tramatic experiences of waking up with no clothes on after hearing "be a good machime." and when cory followed her home.

Btw, what should I do about the mother? should I just leave her out? im thinking about having her come back.