Girl meets world: im only Human.

"olive you"

The next day was Thursday and none of us had school due to Mr. matthews not really being able to teach at the moment, so today was consert planning day.

I invited missy and farkle over and that night, I was super busy writing songs... what? I mean, I wrote the songs in the night and invited farkle and missy during the day.

it was around noon when they came over and topanga made us all lunch. Tuna sandwiches. Not my favorite but food is food.

"My mom wrote a song, and I was  thinking I could just add a tune to it and sing it." I suggested

"You can do that. Who are we to stop you?" missy said.

"can I see the song?" farkle asked.

I glanced down at the paper. "uh sure... just... please be careful with it." I begged handing farkle the paper as he bagan looking over the lyrics.

"I thought you told us yesterday that she was hopeful in coming home?" farkle questioned.

"yeah. why?"

"because here, it kinda sounds like she's giving up."

"what do you mean?" riley asked.

"never mind..."

"no." I said "no, what do you mean?"

"well... i- its just... sometimes people refer to heavan as home and it says "I'm coming home"."

"but it says "I know my kingdom awaits, and they've forgiven my mistakes." I pointed out. "that's me right?"

"well, people say heaven is a kingdom and God forgives people. It also says at the beggining "and the blood will dry underneath my nails."

"maybe she knew it wasn't going to end very pretty." missy cut in.

"well..." I thought for a second. "it also says "no matter what it takes I'm coming home." are you saying my mother was suicidal?"

"like I said earlier maya: nevermind." farkle said handing the paper back to me.

"well... maybe she knew it would end soon." missy suggested.

"We'll probrably never know what she meant." riley cut in.

"Sorry. I shouldnt have said anything."

did she just...give up? she said she wanted to come home in the letter. Maybe she wanted to come home but she knew it would never get to that... I thought.

"so..." I started awkwardly, taking a deep breath to hide the tears starting. "I was thinking after I sung that... song. I could sing a song I've been working on called superheroes. And then sing this other song called ti-"

"hold on." riley inturupted "are ALL your songs going to be powering and inspirational?"

"that's the plan. why?"

"well... I think you should sing a love song. people LOVE love songs." riley said and almost squealed.

"well guess what? I don't." I retorted.

missy and riley seemed to gasp as they looked at me with disbelief. "why? what's wrong with you?" they asked in unison.

"nothing!" I almost yelled "I just think love songs aren't very deep. They're too easy to write... not to mention cheesy and stupid."

its true. my least favorite type of music is stupid cheesy love songs

"well... I was thinking you and farkle should sing a love song together at the consert." Riley said.